If I wrote a note to God..

Devotion-The test of a christian

2011-10-07T06:11:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 53:7
"He was oppressed and He was afflicted, Yet tHe opened not His mouth; tHe was led as a lamb to the slaughter, And as a sheep before its shearers is silent, So He opened not His mouth."

What grace it requires when we are misunderstood yet handle it correctly, or when we are judged unkindly yet receive it in holy sweetness! Nothing tests our character as a Christian more than having something evil said about us. This kind of grinding test is what exposes whether we are solid gold or simply gold-plated metal. If we could only see the blessings that lie hidden in our trials, we would say like David, when Shimei cursed him, "Let him curse...It may be that the LORD will...repay me with good for the cursing I am receiving today" (2 Sam 6:11-12)

Some Christians are easily turned away from the greatness of their life's calling by pursing instead their own grievances and enemies. They ultimately turn their lives into one petty whirlwind of warfare. It reminds me of trying to deal with a hornet's nest. You may be able to disperse the hornets, but you will probably be terribly stung and receive nothing for your pain, for even their honey has no value.

May God grant us more of the Spirit of Christ, who, "when they hurled insults at him..did not retaliate..Instead, he entrusted himself to him who judges justly" (1 Peter 2:23). "Consider him who endured such opposition from sinful men, so that you will not grow weary and lose heart" (Heb 12:3) A.B. Simpson

For you He walked along the path of woe,
He was sharpy struck with His head bent low.
He knew the deepest sorrow, pain and grief,
He knew long endurance with no relief,
He took all the bitter from death's deep cup,
He kept no blood drops but gave them all up.
Yes, for you, and for me, He won the fight
To take us to glory and realms of light.

My prayer: Lord, help me in the midst of criticism and judgement from others, be like Christ, who did not open His mouth, like David, who saw the power of walking through the valleys. Ultimately, our security is in You.

What Faith can do!

2011-08-02T20:39:00.000+08:00

Everybody falls sometimes
Gotta find the strength to rise
From the ashes
And make a new beginning

Anyone can feel the ache
You think it's more than you can take
But you're stronger
Stronger than you know

Don't you give up now
The sun will soon be shining
You gotta face the clouds
To find the silver lining

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

It doesn't matter what you've heard
Impossible is not a word
It's just a reason
For someone not to try

Everybody's scared to death
When they decide to take that step
Out on the water
It'll be alright

Life is so much more
Than what your eyes are seeing
You will find your way
If you keep believing

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do

Overcome the odds
You don't have a chance
(That's what faith can do)
When the world says you can't
It'll tell you that you can

I've seen dreams that move the mountains
Hope that doesn't ever end
Even when the sky is falling
And I've seen miracles just happen
Silent prayers get answered
Broken hearts become brand new
That's what faith can do
That's what faith can do

Even if you fall sometimes
You will have the strength to rise

♥♥♥ Amen. ♥♥♥

2011-07-17T23:30:00.000+08:00

time will tell. everything.

GEEKY NERD!!!

2011-07-16T22:52:00.004+08:00

TIME TO BECOME A NERD AGAIN!! GO DARICE GO!!! :D

Romans 8:22
"That is why waiting does not diminish us, any more than waiting diminishes a pregnant mother. We are ENLARGED IN THE WAITING. We, of course, don't see what is enlarging us. But the longer we wait, the larger we become, and the more joyful our expectancy."

Puzzled.

2011-07-11T09:30:00.002+08:00

God indeed has a funny sense of humour.
Things you thought were never possible, suddenly appear in front of you, becoming your reality.

Things you thought were what you wanted most, what you could vividly imagine for your future, start to fade away and become dim, like it never was there.

At this stage, all I know is to surrender.
I surrender my life, my heart, my soul.

Knowing that if this is truly in your will, it will be as clear as a billboard signage.
I relinquish every control and I trust You completely.

Lord, take my life and make it beautiful
In Your time, not mine.

2011-06-27T16:17:00.001+08:00

Thoughts.

2011-06-04T14:41:00.001+08:00

想要跟你一起走到最後
但我遺失了地圖。

好的事情最後雖然結束
感動十分就有十分滿足
謝謝你是你陪我走過那些路

Wow

2011-06-03T16:15:00.004+08:00

好精彩的变脸表演哦！

Exams

2011-06-02T13:05:00.002+08:00

Nearing exams, with 11 days left to go.

It's been a really exciting journey since starting med school, albeit with some hiccups along the way - but I still thank God that I have this chance to do what I love to do. :)

Finally I get to pursue the dream I've had in my heart all along. That feeling, is pretty darn awesome. :)

Nevertheless, apart from studying, the past few months have taught me alot, good and bad.
I can't say I'm perfect and I never will. But I know that I'm trying to be better.
Each day, is a fresh start to fix my eyes on God, to choose to bless and not to curse, to learn to control emotions and anger, to learn to control the things I say.

It's still a long way to become the clay God wants to be. But I figured I might as well enjoy the moulding and the experiences that come with it.
Yes, I have done things I hope I didn't, and sometimes I wish I knew better then. But then again, without that experience, it would not be me anymore.

Another note...Often we have expectations that when we do something, we'll get back something in return. But I've realised that I need to learn how to put down every expectation and know that my part is just to do what I need to do and the rest is up to the other person.
Something I heard from a sermon recently really nailed the point.
In life, we have to acknowledge that we may give everything we have to our job/work or relationships etc, and yet never get anything back.
With this in mind, no matter what we do, we give our best but then our part stops there. The rest, is out of our control. We cannot control how people react to us or to what we have done ,but we can control how we react to them.

It's difficult, especially because by nature I'm more of a control freak when it comes to small things and details, but I know that slowly but surely I am becoming less of that, and hopefully, more understanding of all kinds of people in this world.

I guess God is training me now, for my future as a doctor, because there will be all sorts of patients I have to see and many of them aren't going to be easy to deal with and I really need an understanding and discerning heart.

Lord, help me become more and more like You. That is my cry, my prayer and my hope. Amen.

So Off I am to study, but I'll be back again once exams are over!! can't wait! :D so many things to do during the hols!! :D

such a powerful expression of feelings.

2011-05-23T04:38:00.002+08:00

2011-03-12T23:28:00.001+08:00

2011-03-08T18:15:00.001+08:00

A very apt song.

2011-02-27T17:25:00.001+08:00

大男人小女孩

不是我的错我们都听过
完美的时候要更多
找这时候说的太多

有时候的我真想和你一样沉默
不想当那罗罗嗦嗦
谁也灭不掉的火

也许大男人真的很男人（没那么男人）
少了点风度还是不承认
有时候错的并不知道错了
不想借口只是直接一点说

有时候女孩没那么小孩
心里的无奈也需要点关怀
遗憾的都已变成勉强了
怎么能重新再来

First Love - Abundant Life Church (Jock James)

2011-02-19T21:20:00.000+08:00

You Are - ALM

2011-02-19T21:19:00.000+08:00

Walk away from it.

2011-02-19T14:00:00.001+08:00

It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.
It is not my business to judge.

Walk away, Darice, Walk away.

People may treat you like you mean nothing, dismiss you with a wave of a hand, but remember, you are always something in the eyes of a loving Father and that is all that matters.

That is all that matters.

1st Month of Med school

2011-02-17T21:55:00.002+08:00

Here I am!

In the 5th week of med school Year 1. Thought it would be good to pen my thoughts down.

Well, this past 1 and a half months here in Brisbane, seems like a year already. And I'm really not joking about that!

Ever since reaching here, It has been about moving in, buying household things, and then came the FLOOOODDD...which meant re-packing everything and moving out AGAIN. LOL...

And then settling into the new home, starting school..and of course a major turning point in my life happened as well.

Above all, I think I have really made some AWESOME friends :) that really allow me to still have a sense of home away from home!!

I am excited because med school has been FUN FUN FUN! I am so sure that UQ is much more fun than NUS ever will be for me. I guess it's my priorities at these different seasons in my life. :)

I should post some photos up in the next post to remember my journey here on med school. I'm quite sure the 4 years are gonna fly buy fairly quickly. It's already week 5 of schoool!!! :O

Hahaha..oh wells, time flies and waits for no man. I should get down to studying for my mid-sem online test. haha. :)

But last of all, before signing off, I really just wanna say thank you to God, Jesus Christ, Holy Spirit - The past 2 weeks have been nothing short of you showing me how blessed I am to have great family, friends and a support network back home that I can always lean on. That people still do care, and though some friendships are broken, others have been formed. Thank you Lord, for showing me that my life is in Your hands, both now and forevermore. No matter what I face in life, your grace is more than sufficient for me. Your blood was shed that I can be victorious and righteous in You. I love you Lord. Amen :)

Thank you Mummy, Poppy and Big Put!!!! You guys are the BEST BEST FAMILY anyone could have and I'm serious about that!! Thank you for talking and encouraging me Mummy, and for speaking wise words that lifted me when I was at my lowest moments. It was your words and reminders about God's Word that I am beautiful in Christ, that has given me the faith to still believe in myself and to let go anything and anyone I needed to. I love you folks dearly!!

Thank you to all my friends, especially Jasmine, Jill, Ying ying because you guys really made an effort to talk to me when I am alone here and to keep cheering me on, showing your genuine love and care. love you gals with all my heart :)

To you - you probably will never read this, but I wanna thank you for all the beautiful moments you have shared with me. Thank you especially for the laughter, that is really your talent :) These moments mean a lot to me and will always remain a very special and important part of my life. I will remember them and treasure them in my heart no matter what. I will miss you..

Couple of thoughts..on couples. :)

2010-12-17T01:22:00.003+08:00

Hello Blog!

It's been really long......and much has happened since I last blogged!
Been really occupied with work, and settling stuff for overseas.

Feel like my whole capacity has been slightly stretched, making much more major decisions on my own, settling my own things by myself and relying less on my parents...which is a good thing.

I still have much to learn, especially in living in a foreign country, but I hope the past months/year, has prepared me enough to be resourceful, independent and able to find out info and settle complicated matters.

I'm rather glad that I've settled all the necessary paperwork, which is tedious, and also many things like renewing passport, buying stuff, planning, organising and most of all, researching on starting a new life in Brisbane.

I'm looking forward to it with much anticipation, and praying and hoping that my homesickness will go away as quickly as possible.

It is also my prayer and confession that I will meet friendly, godly and kind people who I can become good friends/classmates/housemates with over the 4 years.
I pray that my PBL group will be closely knitted and we will all have a good attitude to learning, and not a competitive one.
I pray that I will meet great christians, whom I can go to church together with and most of all be there to support one another in our lives.

=)

Anyway, back to the main point of what I wanted to post on today:
Couples.

Well, recently, someone asked me sth which I felt triggered my thoughts on this.

When we get into a relationship, we really need to decide what kind of couple (agree tog) that we want to be.
I was having a conversation with woman recently and we were commenting that we are very different from our bfs..in terms of what we like to do, or even the "kuan" of the person.

So what is the deeper things, that really ties the couple tog?
Is it just the things u have in common, like the things you both like to do etc?
I believe it isn't, because there must be a deeper level of intimacy than that.

Of course, many people would say it is the values, that both the couples hold.
But I want to go a step further to say that it is not just the values both place importance on, but the priorities on which they live their lives.

As a couple, what do you place your priorities on?
Do you just prioritise friends above ministry , or ministry above family, or family above God?

Sometimes, a couple subconsciously prioritizes certain things without them knowing they did it.
But as a couple, it is important to always evaluate that both are placing priorities on things they both agree on are important, e.g. God first, family second and friends/ministry, third.

I do believe like how conflicts arise when two people's priorities are different (though values may be the same), that applies to couples as well.
When one half says friends are more impt, while the other thinks family is more impt, that's when the conflicts start.

Well, I guess I'm really not the best person to comment on such issues, after all my experiences are not that vast when it comes to bgr.

Just that I wanted to blog to always remind myself, that as a couple, I must ensure that we both come to an agreement on what is impt, and not end up in our own small world, where no one can correct us, or change us.
I pray that God and the church will always be part of the priority in my life and ben's life.
That chasing our dreams and bringing glory to God will always be one of our priorities, that spending time with family and friends will also be one of our priorities, and not just aimlessly going thru life, waiting for things to happen, going thru the same routine motion again.

I pray we will be a dynamic couple that will be bold to chase our dreams; though we may be far apart for long but we will be strong :) and that most of all, we will always be sensitive to God and moudable by Him.

Amen.

2010-07-19T00:30:00.003+08:00

The past 365 days, is nothing short of amazing.

The things I've been through, people I've met, lessons I've learnt.

I guess it's really true. In times like that, you learn who your true friends who care for you are.
One year on, I am able to live life normally, and have no problems whatsoever. Praise the Lord!

But the things I've gone through the past 1 year, is nothing short of God stretching me, disciplining me and enlarging me.

From stress in studies, to finding friendship, and most of all finding love, it has been a real roller coaster ride.. i guess one of extreme emotions, both sorrow and joy.

But like what Pst Kong said today, God cries when we cry, God laughs when we laugh.
And that's why I know I can go through anything, because even when I am in the deepest valley, He will never leave me nor forsake me. He has a great plan for me, and He is in control at all times.

The past week has also been mind expanding. First time I travelled alone. like alone.
first time I took a plane alone. didn't know anyone, simply took a step of faith and went for a mission trip to Cambodia.

Looking back now, I wonder where my courage came from. But I know it must have been from what God placed in my heart.
and I have totally enjoyed and felt so happy that I am able to help the poorer children in the Banteay Mencheay Province in Cambodia.

The children are beautiful, and they remind me, that God created everyone of the people I see.
That He is working out His beautiful plan for them and He has never forgotten them.

My heart is both happy and yet heavy, when I went to serve. Though I couldn't do much help dental wise, but just being there and helping out wherever I can, I learnt to be a servant to the least of my brethren.
I had to wash the hair of the children and look for lice, cut their nails, sterilize dental instruments and do simple things like pumping balloons.

I guess this trip really confirmed why I wanna do medicine. Because I know that one day, I will have the skill and capacity as a doctor to help these poorer kids in Cambodia, who have no money to see a doctor or a dentist. My heart goes out to them. I want to do my best to study hard and eventually I pray that I will be able to be part of an organization similar to One-2-One, and offer medical-related services to the less fortunate.

Being there for 7 days, made me appreciate more of what I have, in this tiny land of Singapore. the clean water we can drink from the tap, the straight and clean streets/roads. the delicious food and countless more.
I'm very grateful that I'm a Singaporean, and I'm very proud of that too. =)

I truly hope that all of you who are reading this, if u can, do go on a similar humanitarian trip. because it will change your life. i believe that is what cultural mandate is about.
Being your best, so that God can use you in a powerful way to bring about social impact.

Lord, my heart is overwhelmed, and it's all so hard to put into words. But behold, you know it altogether. I know that you hear my prayers, and you see my heart. I pray that the children of Cambodia will continue to be strong and healthy and that many of them will come to know You.

Amen. =)

Take time to realize.

2010-07-03T19:37:00.003+08:00

It's really the simplest things, that makes someone feel loved.

Maybe..it's a good thing to go away and study. start over, start afresh.

do things right like how i always wanted to.

Lord, you know my heart and you know my needs, it's hard to put it into words, it's a mixture of excitement, anticipation and fear.

i guess alot of things can change when two people are far away from one another,and relationships will prob change in such a long time, because it is spatial.

i really hope I still am the person who loves God wholeheartedly and loves people fervently, even no matter where I am, no matter how long later.

These are my timeless values, and I won't change them. I will hold on to them.

Thoughts.

2010-06-09T23:19:00.004+08:00

Time to grow up, be independent financially and get going in life.

Many many thoughts running through my head recently, about the future.

Relationships vs. dreams.

Self-actualisation vs. a simple life.

Helping people vs. living comfortably.

As I watch the series Flash forward, somehow, I relate to some of the fears the characters face and at the same time the anticipation of wishing for their desired future to come true.

I must be strong, keep thinking positively and believing.

For what I have received into my spirit, that is what I will get.

Lord, Thank you in advance for that place you've given to me.

Though it is uncertain and difficult to believe, but like what Pst Phil said,

you don't need faith, when you don't need faith.

Now i need faith, because I need faith. And i will choose to believe and i will choose to trust in Your divine plan for me.

I know that whatever the outcomes are, You will lead me and your plans for me are always the best.

I know that, I trust that. :) So Lord, take away every worry because I know you will lead me and will give me the ability to handle whatever difficult things come my way, when they come my way. :)

Love you Lord!

my confession!

2010-06-04T15:18:00.002+08:00

My confession: I WILL GET INTO MED SCHOOL IN UQ!

it will be easy. it will be easy. it will be easy. it will be easy. :)

~Champions are not those who never fail, they are those who never quit! ~

I'm gonna HOPE- hold on, praying expectantly! :)

I'm gonna wait on you Lord!

W-Withstand in the midst of pressure
A-Anticipate (expectation is the seedbed for miracles!)
I- Intercede (pray , pray, pray)
T- Trust in You!!

amen!

Hello blog...!

2010-06-03T22:58:00.003+08:00

Hello blog...been such a longgggg time since i blogged.

guess what? even though its the holidays already, i'm not any less busier!!! -.-

how sickening is that? i really wanna stay home and slack =(
but !!!

i'm not busy for nothing :) it's been such a fruitful one month.

after exams ended on 30 april, i slacked for a week, handled applications and then off to bintan i went on 9-11 may!
it was so fun! :) i did jet ski-ing after so many years. the last time i did it was probably when i was 10? in tioman or bali..i can't remember man....

Anyway, it was fun sun-tanning, swimming alot!! and also jet-ski-ing.
I didn't get to go for my snorkeling and canoe-ing :(

Nvm! I still had one freaking good time with family and with our bfs included!! it was nice to see the family expanding :)

After coming back from bintan, it was time to prepare for Ally & ZQ's wedding!! :)
I was supposed to do the wedding box and guest book, all hand made! so i spent a good 1 week doing it up, and was really happy with the results.

looks like i havent lost the touch with my hands, since mediacorp days. hehe :)

Just a pause here, to congratulate Ally & ZQ on getting married! :)
So happy for them, they had a grand and sweet wedding! They are really one good looking couple i must say! :) and carried themselves really well!

Okay, pause ended. hehe.
Let's continue my story.
So after the wedding, we attended Erika's 21st birthday party @ Spizzico which is a really nice place! :)

THEN came Asia Conference! Honestly, I havent attended church conference since maybe 2 years? The last asia conference was during exam period, so it was a bad time to go.
But this time! I went EVERYDAY!!! =) I'm so glad I did.

It took some momentum to start up and getting used to waking up early (which i'm not used to).
It was definitely tiring, but I totally was blown away and very blessed.
I must say every word has been so timely for me and I just feel God strengthening my faith each and every day to chase my dream and keep on going!!!

After asia conference i was dead beat, but I had to go attachment for 3 days in a row! Waking up early again!!! LOL ...God must be training me man!

But i really had such a great time, so much exposure, and can never be more thankful really.
Seen so much, experience so much. Learnt so much.
Confirmed that I do really wanna do that in my life.

But because i was so tired from AC, and didnt have breakfast on Mon morning, I almost fainted after standing for like 15 mins?!
omg...so paiseh man. first day and the doctor has to see me feeling faint?! lol
thankfully she is succcccchhhhh a niceeee doctor. and i mean really nice.

So finally it was down to shopping for Sam's bday present on wed after attachment! :) with TINA! Hope Sam likes the present!

Today, I went back to school to pass my supervisor and lab friend their presents! been waiting so long to give it to them, finally today I got the chance. :) yayness!!!

Oh hahaha it was so funny when I went to vivo today to buy Aldo heels for sam's bday. I was standing in the shop for i think about 30 mins?
i tried all the black heels hahahh.. and like stood there, sit there then walked around the shop thinking should i buy heels or vouchers. LOL.. in the end, i decided to buy the heels cos they allowed me to change it if anything went wrong. :)
HAHAHA. i think the sales girl must be thinking what on earth is wrong with this girl!
LOL..

Okay, that's what I have been doing in my HOLIDAYS....next week is SLACK WEEK! YIPEE!!
JOB JOB FASTER COME TO ME!! =)

Where are you? :( i really hope you get back soon. cos it's so hard when I can't just pick up the phone and call you. i don't think i've heard your voice for 5 days already. =( =(

i will have faith Lord! Thank you for the place you've given to me! :) yay!

2010-03-25T17:56:00.003+08:00

Life these days, is like a black and white coloured TV screen.

No colour, no excitement, it seems.
Things get blurry, and I kinda forgot how it was like to let go completely and play without a care or worry in the world.

Of course, I'm not overly worried or anything, but I'm definitely drained cos sitting and studying for 12 hours a day is not something I consider healthy.

I feel pretty much far away from everything that used to be close to me, my friends, family, the things I love to do, and even my members!! gosh... i hope that the next month passes quickly. At the same time I hope it doesn't, cos it means less time to do my work! what a dilemma!!

But i know this is a season, a phase, which I will get through. I know that I may have offended people due to my "not being there" and my busyness in this period. If it's you, I sincerely apologise and seek for your understanding.

But I have also learnt through this time that, no one is perfect and I have to stop my idealistic thinking of fairy tales and movies.
Cos things don't happen that way and I guess we just have to get use to it, let go, and move on.

I guess, things will change ALOT from now on, and just maybe, it will never be the same again.
Sometimes I really do wish I could fly away, and never return, and start my life on a new chapter, the way I always wanted to.

I know that having big dreams are really not easy, and we will encounter obstacles along the way, but we must press on. But we must never allow the dreams to be bigger than the DreamGiver.

So Lord, mould me and help me to be all You want me to be. I have lots to improve and learn, but I know you are enlarging my heart. :)

2010-02-20T12:16:00.002+08:00

My new favourite song!

Speaks alot, read the lyrics! :) Love her voice too!!:D

Enjoy!!

A place to crash, I got you
No need to ask, I Got You
Just get on the phone, I Got You
Come and pick you up, If I have to

What's weird about it is we're right at the end
I'm Mad about it, Just figured it out in my head
I'm proud to say, I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better or worse, I got you

Ain't falling apart or bitter
Let's be bigger than that and remember
The colding outdoor when you're all alone
We'll go on surviving, no drama, no need for a show
Just wanna say, I got you

Go ahead and say goodbye, I'll be alright
Go ahead and make me cry, I'll be alright
And when you need a place to run to
For better or worse, I got you

'Cause this is love and life
And nothing we can both control
And if it don't feel right
You're not losing me by letting me know

A place to crash, I Got You
No need to ask, I Got You

L.O.V.E

2010-02-06T12:10:00.004+08:00

One year after Pst Kong preached about the 5 top needs of men and women, I decided to review it again, since I'm attached now.

What struck me as I read through my sermon notes was that:
Compatibility is CREATED, it doesn't come by chance.

And a couple must always have 3 policies that they live by:
1) Policy of joint agreement - be enthusiastic!
2) Policy of radical honesty - say what you feel when you feel it
3) Policy of undivided attention - make time for each other, 15 hours a week.

5 needs of Men:
1) Sexual Fulfillment
2) Recreational Companionship
3) Attractive spouse
4) Domestic support
5) Admiration

5 needs of Women:
1) Affection
2) Conversation (15 hours! omg..lol)
3) Honesty and openess
4) Financial support
5) Family commitment

So...to every couple out there, don't forget to always make time, even no matter how busy you are.
And I have realised, to girls, words of affirmation really are very important.
A simple "I love you" or "I miss you", could make such a huge difference between feeling neglected and feeling treasured.
You can never say too many "I love you"-s to a person!

I think it's every girl's dream come true to have a perfect man who can do all that. But we all know that no man is perfect, and we just gotta keep learning along the way, giving and taking, being understanding with each other.

I have my expectations, and I know it won't be met in an instant. So I really need some patience!! (God, I hope you are hearing this)

My prayer is that we can really grow in our relationship, to be there for one another, to be each other's greatest cheerleader and to always have Jesus' love, joy and peace in the relationship.

Search me, O God, you know my heart;
Try me, you know my anxieties;
And see if there is any wicked way in me;
& lead me in the way everlasting!

Updates!

2010-02-06T04:17:00.009+08:00

4th Feb was our first month anniversary!!

Happy 1st Month deardear!:) I really treasure every moment I have with you, really hope that we can really grow closer every single day! I love you!! :D

I shall upload photos soon on FB soon! stay tuned! :)

Anyway, Jan has been a really crazy one month...school is tiring but learning loads of new things every day is fun:)

I seriously do enjoy my lectures in this last semester:)

Although it means a heavy workload these 3 months, I have to pull through and think positively every single day!

I will not give up because God is with me, and Nothing is Impossible!
If I can see it, I can have it!!

:)

This week, I realised that words are really important, and sometimes, people really do appreciate simple words of encouragement and assurance.
You never know what the other person is feeling and how your words could potentially turn them around:)
I want to speak words of love, joy and peace into people's lives!

Okay..it's late, I shall go to sleep!!! Good nights everyone!

P.S: could you assure me and tell me I'm the one for you?

5th day of being attached!

2010-01-09T00:40:00.002+08:00

Today is the 5th day of being attached, in my whole life. OMG. hahaha:)

Slowly I'm getting used to the fact that I have a boyfriend now!
No longer the independent Darice that has done everything alone for the last 22 years.

Now, I have to learn to accomodate someone else into my life, my schedule, my everything:)
But I'm more than glad to do so!

P.S: Because I know that God is the one who sent you into my life:) I'm eternally grateful, and I cannot stop thinking how amazing it is.

I just wanna dedicate the following song to you:) Because this song perfectly describes you.

YOU CAN

Take me where I've never been
Help me on my feet again
Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Tell me I'm not on my own
Tell me I won't be alone
Tell me what I'm feeling isn't some mistake
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me, I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Baby, when you look at me
Tell me what do you see?
Are these the eyes of someone
You could love?

'Cause everything that brought me here
Well, not it all seems so clear
Baby, you're the one that I've been dreaming of
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Save me from myself, you can
And it's you and no one else
If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end

If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
'Cause if anyone can make me fall in love

Only you can take me sailing in your deepest eyes
Bring me to my knees and make me cry
And no one's ever done this
Everything was just a lie and I know, yes, I know

This is where it all begins
So tell me it will never end
I can't fool myself
It's you and no one else

If I could wish upon tomorrow
Tonight would never end
If you asked me I would follow
But for now I'll just pretend
If anyone can make me fall in love, you can

Show me that good things come
To those who wait

Attached:D

2010-01-06T00:41:00.005+08:00

HELLO BLOG!

I HAVE AN ANNOUNCEMENT TO MAKE:)

I'M OFFICIALLY ATTACHED AS OF 4 JAN.

TO WHO?

TO BEN WANG!!!:D:D

What a shocking start to 2010.. haha i think i still need some time to recover and tune into the current news.OMG..

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it's 2010!!!:D

2010-01-01T12:16:00.004+08:00

BLESSED NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE OF YOU PEEPS!! :D
May 2010 be such an abundant and prosperous year, overflowing with the LOVE & GRACE of Jesus:)

On this new year, I thought it would be good to reaffirm my convictions again, with these verses in mind.

Was reading Max Lucado's "Cast of Characters", this morning, and It was such a timely devotion.

The 7:47 Principle

Luke 7:36-47

36 One of the Pharisees asked Jesus to have dinner with him, so Jesus went to his home and sat down to eat.[a] 37 When a certain immoral woman from that city heard he was eating there, she brought a beautiful alabaster jar filled with expensive perfume. 38 Then she knelt behind him at his feet, weeping. Her tears fell on his feet, and she wiped them off with her hair. Then she kept kissing his feet and putting perfume on them.

39 When the Pharisee who had invited him saw this, he said to himself, “If this man were a prophet, he would know what kind of woman is touching him. She’s a sinner!”

40 Then Jesus answered his thoughts. “Simon,” he said to the Pharisee, “I have something to say to you.”

“Go ahead, Teacher,” Simon replied.

41 Then Jesus told him this story: “A man loaned money to two people—500 pieces of silver[b] to one and 50 pieces to the other. 42 But neither of them could repay him, so he kindly forgave them both, canceling their debts. Who do you suppose loved him more after that?”

43 Simon answered, “I suppose the one for whom he canceled the larger debt.”

“That’s right,” Jesus said. 44 Then he turned to the woman and said to Simon, “Look at this woman kneeling here. When I entered your home, you didn’t offer me water to wash the dust from my feet, but she has washed them with her tears and wiped them with her hair. 45 You didn’t greet me with a kiss, but from the time I first came in, she has not stopped kissing my feet. 46 You neglected the courtesy of olive oil to anoint my head, but she has anointed my feet with rare perfume.

47 “I tell you, her sins—and they are many—have been forgiven, so she has shown me much love. But a person who is forgiven little shows only little love.”

Many times we strive to do better and work harder at our relationships, trying to save our troubled lives by ourselves. But could it be that the first step of love is not toward them, but toward him?

Could it be that the secret to loving, is receiving?
You give love, by first receiving it-- "We love because he first loved us".

This year 2010, I want to be more loving, but it begins not with myself trying harder to love, or to be more patient with others, like what Luke 7:47 says, it begins with us receiving.

We all need a transfusion of God's love into our hearts, and if we only tell others to love without telling them to receive God's love, it is like telling them to write a cheque without making any deposit into their accounts.

No wonder so many people have insufficient love.

The secret to loving, is LIVING LOVED.
Go back and remember, how much you have been forgiven, how much God has been patient with you, how much God has put you first. Then will you find the strength to love others in a similar way.

I want to be thirsty for Your love, because without You, Lord, I am nothing.

So, Jesus, I welcome you into my 2010, into my life, my thoughts, my actions, my plans. Into my heart.

I ask that This year will not just be another successsful year, but also a year filled with Your love to overflowing, lives changed, destinies fulfilled. :D

So before ending this post, I would like to leave you with this:

1 Cor 13
Jesus is patient, Jesus is kind. Jesus does not envy, He does not boast, Jesus is not proud. Jesus is not rude, He is not self-seeking, He is not easily angered, He keeps no record of wrongs. Jesus does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. Jesus always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Jesus never fails.

Amen.

Weird feelings.

2009-12-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

It's just so weird, how things change in an instant, Like the way the wind changes directions and the sun shines from the east to the west.

2010, new year, new responsibilities, new relationships, new convictions , new goals.

I proclaim that this will be a year where my dreams come true!

P.S: show me that good things come to those who wait. Upon You.:)

Visit to Nursing Home

2009-12-23T22:50:00.002+08:00

Once again, at the end of the year, it is good to do good. :)

I'm happy that every year during christmas, our CG can be involved in some volunteer work.
Because I don't wish that my members become self centered and live life only for themselves.

So all you members out there, let's not have the poverty mindset that you only have enough for yourself.
It's only when you give, then will you realise, you actually do have more than enough to bless others.

As always, Christmas is nearing the end of 2009, & so a time of reflection is here!

There is really only 1 word to describe my entire 2009.

PHENOMENAL!!!!!!!!!

There were many ups and many downs along the way, which really all made me stronger in many different areas.
It has been a year of moulding, changing, pruning, resting and working as well.

For many reasons, I truly am Thankful to You, Jesus:

1) For my UROPS project completion in April, with a grade of A-!
2) For my successful operation on my scoliosis, a condition that bothered me for 8 years is finally settled and done!
3) For a fully sponsored trip to Scotland & London! love it to the max!
4) For a great trip with Sam, ZH & Ben to Taiwan!! :) totally changed my social life.
haha.
5) Bionic 6!! one of the things that totally and radically blew me away.:) thank you Jesus!
6) for finishing the year with at least the results i neeed for FYP:)
7) Closer relationship with my parents, family!
8) Addition of Ah Peng into the family!:)
9) New digital camera:) woohoo thanks PuT family!!
10) New KT zone! Looking forward to running together!
And the list really goes on....... and on......

Moral of the Story, It has been a fun year and I look forward to 2010, cos many more exciting things are about to happen!!:)

YAY!!

P.S: "Count your blessings today!"

Church

2009-12-21T00:49:00.002+08:00

Tonight's Thanksgiving, is mind blowing.:)

During the Worship, God suddenly brought and gave me a flash back of the different milestones in my life: the first time i came to church, the time when I decided to become a CGL, the time when things were tough but we pulled through..and many more.

I am so thankful, grateful and whatever else word u can use, for this family.
If not for God, and CHC, I will not be the Darice you know today.

6 years has passed, and I will not trade anything for what I have gained in these 6 years of sticking to the House of God.

I truly believe, our destiny is linked to this church's destiny. And our destiny will be a smaller picture of the entire church's destiny. :D

Sometimes along the way, we lose our purpose of what we laid down our lives for, and honestly, that's when it gets tiring and mundane.
But when we find back our reasons, our convictions, our passion, our heart to love and to serve, that's when it gets fun and exciting.

My prayer today is only that God will restore the walls that have broken down, the compassion that fizzled away, the convictions and love for the spiritual disciplines I used to really have.
I need to get back, and I know everyone of us need too. :)

"Though none go with me, still I will follow..."

argh

2009-12-19T00:32:00.002+08:00

God help me!!

Cleanse my mind, thoughts and the intentions of my heart.
It's seriously not easy to not judge someone when you know exactly what they did.

Argghhh..help me!

Initiative

2009-12-17T20:59:00.003+08:00

Matthew 7:12

"Here is a simple, rule-of-thumb guide for behavior: Ask yourself what you want people to do for you, then grab the initiative and do it for them. Add up God's Law and Prophets and this is what you get.

This is how I want to live my life..cos it's not how much you do, but how much love you put into what you are doing.

*Mood: Thoughtful..

Isaiah 58

2009-12-11T12:32:00.002+08:00

Isaiah 58 (The Message)

Your Prayers Won't Get Off the Ground

1-3 "Shout! A full-throated shout! Hold nothing back—a trumpet-blast shout!
Tell my people what's wrong with their lives,
face my family Jacob with their sins!
They're busy, busy, busy at worship,
and love studying all about me.
To all appearances they're a nation of right-living people—
law-abiding, God-honoring.
They ask me, 'What's the right thing to do?'
and love having me on their side.
But they also complain,
'Why do we fast and you don't look our way?
Why do we humble ourselves and you don't even notice?'

3-5"Well, here's why:

"The bottom line on your 'fast days' is profit.
You drive your employees much too hard.
You fast, but at the same time you bicker and fight.
You fast, but you swing a mean fist.
The kind of fasting you do
won't get your prayers off the ground.
Do you think this is the kind of fast day I'm after:
a day to show off humility?
To put on a pious long face
and parade around solemnly in black?
Do you call that fasting,
a fast day that I, God, would like?

6-9"This is the kind of fast day I'm after:
to break the chains of injustice,
get rid of exploitation in the workplace,
free the oppressed,
cancel debts.
What I'm interested in seeing you do is:
sharing your food with the hungry,
inviting the homeless poor into your homes,
putting clothes on the shivering ill-clad,
being available to your own families.
Do this and the lights will turn on,
and your lives will turn around at once.
Your righteousness will pave your way.
The God of glory will secure your passage.
Then when you pray, God will answer.
You'll call out for help and I'll say, 'Here I am.'
A Full Life in the Emptiest of Places
9-12"If you get rid of unfair practices,
quit blaming victims,
quit gossiping about other people's sins,
If you are generous with the hungry
and start giving yourselves to the down-and-out,
Your lives will begin to glow in the darkness,
your shadowed lives will be bathed in sunlight.
I will always show you where to go.
I'll give you a full life in the emptiest of places—
firm muscles, strong bones.
You'll be like a well-watered garden,
a gurgling spring that never runs dry.
You'll use the old rubble of past lives to build anew,
rebuild the foundations from out of your past.
You'll be known as those who can fix anything,
restore old ruins, rebuild and renovate,
make the community livable again.

13-14"If you watch your step on the Sabbath
and don't use my holy day for personal advantage,
If you treat the Sabbath as a day of joy,
God's holy day as a celebration,
If you honor it by refusing 'business as usual,'
making money, running here and there—
Then you'll be free to enjoy God!
Oh, I'll make you ride high and soar above it all.
I'll make you feast on the inheritance of your ancestor Jacob."
Yes! God says so!

VERY blessed by this passage.
Used to read it every time I fast, and today when I read it again in the MSG, really got blown away.
Not just about fasting but more about the Sabbath.
Truly Sabbath is resting in God.
Not a slacking kind of rest, but working with God = rest!:)

Hope you are blessed too!

Christmas!

2009-12-03T23:07:00.002+08:00

OMG..

Today, I went on a MEGA.. and I mean MEGA.. lol.. shopping spree.

So long since I felt so free to spend my money in Singapore. HAHA..must be scotland that changed me. :D lol

but i shall resolve not to become a shopaholic anyways!! CONTROLLED SPENDING!! YAY!

I bought a total of:
-4 dresses
-2 T shirts
-1 skirt
-1 black stockings

IN A SPAN OF 2 DAYS!! Woah.. i think i'm quite a shopper man. LOL..
but yea, think that's gonna last me till end of Christmas! :)

So happy with my new clothes!! I'm going to wear them soooonnnnn:)
Decided to try out new stuff, more prints and girly stuff!:)
Lesser of my rock chic look, more Sexy..:O

HOHO..hope I can pull it off yea!!:)

And ALSO..CHRISTMAS IS 22 DAYS AWAY!!:) WOOHOO! I CAN FEEL THE CHRISTMAS SPIRIT IN THE ATMOSPHERE!!:):)

19TH DEC FASTER COME!! CAN'T WAIT FOR OUR CHRISTMAS PARTY!! :)

OKay..shall go off now! Tata!

一個人。

2009-11-18T22:12:00.005+08:00

你有沒有過這種心情。。。
明明很痛，明明很想兩個人，
卻只能一個人。

在倔強之後，在寂寞之前，
擦掉眼淚，告訴自己，

一個人就好。

Michael Jackson

2009-11-04T11:09:00.001+08:00

So I got a new app! Called Blogpress and so here I am blogging away!:)

Hoho ..I have to start studying for my exams already, and there's only 3 weeks left to exams!

Go go Darice! Chiong and do ur best cos God is with you!!!:D <3

Yay!!!!! And for all who are doing O levels and A levels, let's gambate together!:) you can do it too!! Yes u can!

Anyways, On my birthday, I went to catch This is IT! It was Phenomenal! MJ is truly the epitome of pop and of performance. He is a truly good peformer in himself. And I am blown away by how much love he has to offer to each dancer and also stage crew, and the message he has in his heart to bring to the nations about the Earth and about mankind.

MJ, I respect you, because you are truly God-sent to us, to show us that God is indeed Elohim- the creative God. And that God is truly able to do exceedingly abundantly in anything.
Have u ever wondered? If God created MJ, how much more creativity God must have?
I think my finite mind cannot comprehend it. All I can do is stand in awe of who He is.

Lord, You never fail to make me fall in love with You all Over again! <3

And and! I Can't wait for Christmas to come! The atmosphere is starting to get christmasy!! Hehe

"I'm dreaming of a white Christmas...."

So u can see I'm blogging rubbish. Just wanna test out the app. Hahahahah!!!

Okie Tata!

- Posted using BlogPress

birthday!:D

2009-11-01T22:56:00.004+08:00

It's the time of the year again-- my birthday!:)

FIRST of all, would like to SINCERELY THANK EVERYONE who wished me, who spent time with me and who made me feel super loved over this weekend. (:

Especially to Mummy Poppy and Joy and Leo--> thank you for the digital camera! it's my dream come true!

To Bionic 6, thank you for the pretty trenchcoat dress :) LOVE IT loads.Thanks for the special arrangements, and always being there. you guys are really my prayers answered! still very amazed by this friendship!

To Huijuan, Kee liang and Jin Lih, thank you for the denim jacket!:) you guys are my forever friends, and you all mean alot to me :)

To Serena, Kenneth, Tina, Cheryl, jermain, Xiu Wen, Josephine- thanks for the really pretty watch!!!!!:) I love it!! Thanks!!

To Cell group N350 & W228, thank you for the pleasant suprise!!:) love you guys always always! thanks for supporting me in these few months! <3

To everyone else I didn't name, I thank you from the bottom of my heart too :)

And again, It's my annual reflection time, where I look back and see all that has happened this year, and what I would like to do in the next year of my life.

I think this year has really been one of the most exciting I've had in a lonnng lonng time.

Old Darice- stay home, go out with family, go school, go church, go home.

Now- Go lab , go school, go out with family, go out with BIONIC 6, go church, go SCOTLAND!!! hahahahahaa..

And here, I just want to say that Lord, I'm forever grateful for what you have done for me this year. It's been amazing, and I know it's the beginning of more amazing things to come.

Lord, I thank you for:
-good health, a successful operation and a straightened spine (after many years)
-for my beloved poppy, mummy, joy and leo..not forgetting grover, ah geok and ah peng:)
-for putting me in such a fantastic lab
-for letting me get to know bionic 6
-for blessing me with a taiwan trip
-for U21 conference to London and Scotland
-for CK/KT zone
-for a digital camera!! :D
-for ALL my friends!!!!:)

I really count my blessings, and please help me not to ever take it forgranted!!!!!

I must say that it has been a tough but absolutely mind blowing year, and many precious moments that I would never trade anything else for.

And this is my prayer,
Exodus 33:15 "Then Moses said to him, "If your Presence does not go with us, do not send us up from here.

Search me, and know my heart
Try me and know my anxieties,
And see if there is any wicked way in me;
And lead me in the way everlasting.

Help me to be all that you want me to be:)

GLASGOW!!

2009-10-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

Heyo Everyone!!:)

I'M BACK FROM LONDON AND SCOTLAND! AND I LOVE IT!

It has been a great eye opening and fantastic experience!
For more info please look @ Facebook Pictures!
Pictures paint a thousand words!!

BTW.. I GOT A NEW DIGITAL CAMERA FOR MY BIRTHDAY FROM POPPY MUMMY JOY AND LEO!!! WOOHOOO THANK YOU THE PUT FAMILY!!:D:D:D

totallly loved my new camera and camera-whored like crazy in london and scotland!! hahaha!

I just feel really grateful for this blessing from God, to be able to go and enjoy myself and also make new friends from universities all over the world!
It is a very enriching experience and inspiring at the same time to know that there are many people who are passionate about research in so many diverse fields, brought together by a common passion to ask and answer questions that can help the world to become a better place!!!

I've learnt alot, and become more aware of myself and also have had time to think about many things!
I also wanna thank Kai Yun and De xiang for helping me with my loads of luggage throughout the trip, especially cos i can't carry heavy things! Thanks for being great buddies on this trip together!:)

Love ya guys!!

And to Sam and Ben, thanks for taking time to come fetch me at the airport. It was honestly suprising cos I didn't expect anyone except my parents to come! But you guys really made my day and I was so happy to be able to see you guys again after 11 longggg days!!!:D

Thanks also to my parents, for taking leave to fetch me! You are always there for me!:) Love you mummy and poppy!!:)

Alright, now, its no time to lose and i gotta gain momentum quickly in my studying and also my lab stuff! No more time to waste cos exams are coming!!

AH! 2009 IS SUCH A DIVINE YEAR, a year of opportunities and relationships forged.
THANK YOU JESUS!:)

P.S:It's only going to get more exciting from here!

SCOTLAND!

2009-10-04T23:09:00.002+08:00

ONE MORE WEEK..
7 DAYS..
6....
5....
4...
3....
2....
1...!!!!!!!

WOOHOO! LONDON AND SCOTLAND HERE I COME! WOOOWEEE(:

Hehe..:D

I'm so excited for this week, it's just super alot of exciting things coming up!
there's loads of things to be done before i fly, school, lab and packing my stuff!

And not forgetting, this week is Zhihong's birthday:) Happy birthday in advance(: I'm the first to wish you! muhahhahahha..

Well, really enjoyed yesterday and today, had Samantha staying over @ my place on Sat night, and we did our usual nonsense hahaa:)

Today i went to watch for the first time, a soccer match --Spartans!!
Must say i really enjoyed it, and the commentator (none other than Sam) was an educated one. hahahaha

yeah, never really knew why 11 guys go crazy over a ball. but after today , i think i know(:

JIA YOU SPARTANS! hope i can be there to watch at least one more! :D

HOHO..okie i'm off to do my stuff:)

*current mood*: SUPERCALIFRAGALISTICASPIALIDOCIOUS-LY EXCITED!!!!!

In the lab @ unearthly hours

2009-09-30T02:08:00.002+08:00

Here I am!

Sitting in the lab, waiting for the sample to spin down in the centrifuge few doors away.:)

And guess the time now? It's 2.09am.
Wow!! It is 2 freakin' AM!!

I left school at 9pm earlier today, and reached home at 930, but I AM BACK IN 3 HOURS!!!!

Alright, I have no reason to complain, and i am happy because this means I have one more sample to look after and more cells!!! :D

So now, I make a declaration to my cells that I LOVE YOU!!! YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL AND YOU CELLS ARE GONNA GROW LIKE NEVER BEFORE, INTO COBBLE-STONE EPCs!! GROW GROW GROWWWW!!!

so i can have a break from sample collection. hahahaha..

Anyway! I've changed my blogskin! Because apparently my very nice black and white polka dotted background is not supported by photobucket anymore. So tada! I have a N.E.R.D blogskin! which i think is so me, considering it has polka dots and it has a cool definition on being a trendy nerd, which I always tell my members to be. hahahah..

So anyway, hope it looks nice, and you can let me know if you absolutely hate it. hahah..and I will absolutely hate you. HAHAHA.. no la..joking!! HEHE:)

Okay, this is probably the only spare few minutes that i have to blog this week, cos tomorrow and thurs i'm packed with lab, tuition and lessons! And friday I need to go collect digital drums for the album recording, on saturday, then go to cell group, then leave early and go to my lab meeting (farewell for a PhD student).

SO JIA YOU DARICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! IT WILL BE OVER SOON..

12 MORE DAYS TO LONDON AND SCOTLAND! IT WILL BE SO MUCH FUN!! PSYCHO MYSELF NOW TO WORK DOUBLY HARD THEN GO AND PLAY DOUBLY HARD THERE! WOOO!!!
still kinda feels unrealistic that I'm going.. Hhaha!!! WOOOOOOO!! :D:D:D

Okie..enough of my nonsense!

Thanks for your time in reading my very rubbish post. hahaha!

2009-09-23T01:06:00.002+08:00

Watched "The Ugly Truth" yesterday with the BIONIC SIX! HAHAHAH!

What a name, so funny. We all even created our own super powers!

Zhi hong- Incredible Hulk!
Samantha- Catch fire!!
Ben- Invisble man (transparent la!)
ZiQian- Laser eyes!
Alicia- Stop time woman!
Darice (yours truly)- Teleport!! :D

Woohoo! we all got our special powers to play with now! haha! really had a great time with everyone.

Was lying on my bed, thinking about how I used to be a very "2/3-in-a-grp" person, rather than those big gangs kind, especially from young till even JC or Uni.
But now, I realise, I do like hanging out in bigger groups! :D

As Sam said, I'm thankful and very grateful that God has answered my prayer for friends (i prayed this sometime back), and he gave me EXceedingly and Abundantly, more than I can ask or imagine. :) Thank you Jesus!

Anyway, back to the Ugly truth, I wanna blog about it, because it really made me think alot alot.
It was so real, the whole show and it made me realise a few things:
Sometimes, we really try to be someone's dream person, the perfect person, one that doesn't control or is pretty and sexy, and we end up, losing ourselves in the midst of it all.
After watching the show, i'm convicted, that I want to be myself everywhere I go, and have people love me for who I really am, not what someone tells me to be.
There's a line that Katherine said in the show which really hit me that goes sth like this: "Because no one loves a control freak!", and she finally got so sick of being someone she wasn't.
Kinda hit me cos I think I am a control freak, to a certain extent. UH-OH.
But yet, at the end of the day, she found someone who loves her just the way she is.

Sometimes, this is the ugly truth. That there are people who will come by you, and try to see you as who they want to fall in love with, and when they realise you aren't like that, they just leave u hanging.

And sometimes it feels like it's so hard to ever find someone who will love me for who I am, given i'm crazy like a mad woman(haha), but deep down inside I want and do believe, that God has prepared for me the best.

And I know He has. :)

So to all the girls outside, BE YOURSELF! DON'T CARE WHAT STEREOTYPES PEOPLE THROW ON YOU. YOU ARE WHAT PEOPLE LOVE. :D

My Sister's Keeper

2009-09-08T21:39:00.000+08:00

I watched this movie, My Sister's Keeper today.

It was an amazing movie, because it addressed the fundamental threads that make up this thing called-Family.

It is really sad, because you see how we as humans cannot control life or death, by our own power.
This story is about a girl, who is purposefully "created" and born to donate bone marrow and a kidney to her dying sister, who has leukemia.
Watching this from the perspective of being in hospital not long ago, it was so real that it hit me in the face- how life and death are a part of everyday living.

How a mother's heartbeat is always to keep her children safe, to do everything she can in her power.
Personally, i cried the most when Kate was alone in the room with her mother, getting her mother to come to terms with the fact that it was time for her to go, How her mother really broke down and cried.

I really cried buckets then, and you can see how life is never the same after a close one has passed away.
Although i've not experienced this first hand, but you can feel the grief even after the scene of her funeral.
Most importantly, it taught me the power of family ties, that nothing, not a court case, nor a death, can break our families apart.

I guess God put you in your family for a reason, and we should treasure each and every sibling and our parents. Because you really never know when they will no longer be on this earth.

I'm glad I have a sister. I hope I can be my sister's keeper too. I love you Joy! (:

AND..please watch the trailer below!!(:

School!!

2009-09-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

Heya People!!

Been a few days since I updated my blog, been busy with school lectures, lab and assignments!!

Finally got a breather after i handed up my first assignment of this semester!!:)
Yipee!! Pray for favour from my Prof that he will be in a super good mood when he marks and give me SUPER high marks! hahaha!

But anyway, i have nothing much to blog actually, haha, except i'm really into singing again!!

Gonna perform with sam at someone's party (shall not disclose who hehe), and i'm actually pretty hyped up and excited about it, cos we're gonna be like a live band gig! hahaha!

Hope it will really turn out nice, and we can also improve our singing!!:D today was really fun, and here's a song that we recorded!!
It's definitely not the best yet, hehe, but just listen and do give us your comments!!(:

Make it Mutual-Sam & Darice.m4a -

2009-08-22T00:53:00.002+08:00

WOW is all i can say to describe this week.

It's been one heck of an absolutely divine week!! And i'm really grateful! Thank you Jesus!!

Okay, so let me explain the cause for my exhilaration!!

Basically, NUS is involved in this network of universities called U21. It's a research conference held yearly, to promote undergraduate researchers coming together to present their findings and projects from their respective universities.

This year, this conference is held in Scotland, @ the University of Glasgow! Well, when i first heard of it, i was interested in it, so i just anyhow try my luck and applied for it.

Lo and Behold! On Monday (the one that passed), they called me to say i was shortlisted for the interview. SHOCKED is the word, cos my application is quite blank-- no CCAs , no awards, nothing la basically! haha!

And i actually got shortlisted. So, it's pretty amazing already.

Thursday came the interview, i was kinda nervous, but just kept praying the whole time. it was short i think i smoked through alot of the answers. haha!

They asked me: "what's one thing you would say to your fellow colleagues at the conference about NUS?"

Me: Vibrant! haha! because NUS doesn't just want their students to focus on studying only, but also offer programmes like Student Exchange programmes. (haha like trying to 'po' them!)

They: "oh then how come you didnt go for the exchange programmes?"

Me: Oh!! haha because it's expensive! Cost is an issue. -.-

OMG.i think i sound kinda bimbotic..seriously..:O

HAHA..anyway! today they emailed me saying I AM IN!! HAHAHA!! WAHH it's such a pleasant surprise to hear that, and i was over the moon!! super duper duper happy!

Cos they best part is, they will sponsor me 2.4K to cover costs! OH OH OH!

but it's ex there la! so i think will still need to pay maybe 1k?

but 1k to go scotland for 7 days? Where are you going to find a deal like that? hahaha!!

Moral of the story: PRAISE THE LORD!!!!! :) He really opened the doors, that no Man can shut!

I'm looking forward to going there, from Oct 15-21 2009! can't wait! that'll be my second trip abroad in 2009, after a seven year hiatus of not taking planes. hahaha!

God is truly more than enough!:)

Another thing that really made me glad this week, was the fact that I started reading up more scientific journals, and gained momentum to read them and managed to formulate the whole honour's project i'm doing clearly. WOOHOO!! finally i'm on the track to somewhere. :D

yipee yay!!!

HEHE..okok! so it's been a fabulous week, and i hope yours is too! But anyhow, let's give thanks IN all circumstances!

2009-08-15T01:51:00.003+08:00

Listen to this song, it's called A heart After You.

This Song is so powerful, and it's really been a song that became a prayer in my heart all through these years, through my ups and downs, thru the darkest of nights.

I still think that such songs are so very close to my heart. I mean new songs are great, but somehow, i think the old songs like these, bring us closer to God and love Him more than any new song can.

Make this ur prayer today!!(:

Study!

2009-08-13T09:42:00.000+08:00

School has started, after what seems like a super long 3 months, but yet like not very long.

Well, now that school has started, there is really no time for play anymore!!!!

I need to focus and really study very hard, become a bookworm, hibernate in the library and study all day long!

This is my VERY crucial year, and alot of important exams coming up.

JIA YOU JIA YOU all the students out there, and finish this year well and make yourself PROUD!!(:

Perfect Cut!

2009-08-06T12:19:00.000+08:00

The chorus is so beautiful! It really speaks of loving yourself from within, and using your inner beauty to cover up for the physical flaws that we all have.

Enjoy!

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我被注意了
曾难过曾失落
微笑一下就过
外在的美貌容易戳破
内在的美好细水长流

我知道我变漂亮了
我知道我也豁达了
不自卑不埋怨
就算还差一点点
用内涵弥补一切缺陷
内在的美迷住每个人的眼

CHC's 20th Anniversary

2009-08-02T20:30:00.001+08:00

It's been one great day today! Simply because it is CHC's 20th Anniversary today!(:

When the 20 pioneers stood on stage to share their testimonies, my heart was filled with awe and immense gratitude. Words couldn't describe how I was feeling then , but tears just kept flowing down my eyes as I listened to each testimony and watched "My first Sunday in Church".

Everytime we celebrate our anniversary on a big scale like this, I never fail to cry my eyes out, because the same feeling overwhelms me.
I know that I am who I am because of this Church and its members, and my life has been radically changed from the moment I stepped into CHC years ago.

Everyone of the testimonies were inspiring, but they all carry the same message.
It is the AWESOME Presence and Atmosphere in this place that DRAWS US. Towards Him, Towards each other.

Lord, I'm so thankful that you arranged for me to be part of this church. I cannot imagine if I did not spend the past 6 years of my weekends in Church. I'd probably turn out to be an insecure, introverted, quiet girl and who knows what else.

Have you ever thought, what if you were never "arranged" by God to be invited by a friend, or never came to this church? Well I have, many times. And this is what I figure:

I would never have the chance to lead young people nor influence them for God;
I never would discover that I could actually sing and use my voice for Worshipping Him;
I'd probably have 1039018137X less friends;
I'd be cooped up in my own world somewhere.

But, God Your Plan is always amazing, and You have our best interests at heart.
On this day, I will renew my commitments, convictions and renew my passion for Your House once again.
Thank you for raising up Pastor Kong, who never failes to inspire and bring FIRE to our hearts.

What touched me most, was what Belinda Lee said in the last part of the video.
"I know, that CHC is where I'm going to stay, for as long as I live."

When she said that, a chord struck in my heart. indeed, this is what I would say too.

I'm here to stay. (:

Beauty and the Beast

2009-08-01T03:11:00.000+08:00

This is really my favourite Disney Cartoon of all TIME!
Brings such a magical feeling, and i believe it's every girl's dream to fall in love and live happily ever after! haha!
Hope this video will bring back some childhood memories for you!!(:

2009-07-30T11:06:00.003+08:00

IT'S A HAPPY DAY!!!!(:(:(:(:(:(:

Recently after my operation, been looking forward to wake up every morning to a brand new day. Don't know why, but I feel extremely happy in the morning.(:

I think from now on, I must aim to be happy every morning, and not drag my feet to school or anything, because it's a day that my Lord has made, and I will rejoice in it!!!

:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D YAY!!! REJOICE!!!!(:

it's a brand new day to accomplish new things, be hardworking and diligent in my studies, enjoy the music of life! HEHEHE!

okay..this is a very RANDOM POST.
Tata!!!

Sudan

2009-07-30T02:12:00.000+08:00

Are we too cooped up in our own world?

I cannot imagine why people are able to carry out such horrible actions. It saddens my heart.
But yet, it reminds me that I should be grateful for what I have, and for our peace in Singapore.
As National Day draws near, Let's keep praying for racial harmony and peace in our nation.

That's why I also thank God for Pastor Kong, who never fails to reach out and bring humanitarian aid to our neighbouring countries. To love the down and out and bring hope to the broken. Thank you Pastor Kong, Thank you SUN, for being a wonderful example for everyone of us, and for educating us the importance of charity.

I hope these videos will awaken you in some way.

I Think I

2009-07-29T02:04:00.000+08:00

This is still one of my favourite songs of all times, maybe because I really love this show-Full House.
Shall use this for my wedding one day! wahaha!

Seven things

2009-07-27T19:19:00.004+08:00

Seven Things

There's a really nice line in this song,

And the seventh thing i hate the most that you do- you make me love you.:)
Sweet song!! Enjoy:)

AMAZING.

2009-07-25T21:47:00.000+08:00

Everytime I listen to this song, I get goosebumps and I can feel the Presence of God all over me.
Andrea Bocelli's voice is simple God-given and utterly amazes me.
I think it will amaze you just as much! Enjoy!:)

My stay in the hospital

2009-07-23T22:18:00.008+08:00

Here are some recollections, of my week long stay in NUH Ward 51 Bed 11.
I would say that the first two days were like hell, cos i was practially immobile. I hate that feeling when you can't move, and all you can do is lie on ur back. But your back hurts just as much and the vomiting really doesn't make it any better. It was really like Psalms 23: "Ye though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil."
Thank God for His strength that i managed to pull through the sleepless nights, and 9 times of vomiting, not mentioning i couldn't use much of the painkiller cos it made me vomit.

BUT! God's light always shines brightly at the end of the tunnel. I gradually got better, got used to staying in hospital, peeing in bed (lol), turning from side to side to find a comfortable position and trying to gobble as much food as i can and learning how to stand up and walk again.

At the end of it all, I realised now how difficult it is for our grandparents who are immobile or those who have Parkinson's Disease feel. It is really a torture when you cannot move and all you can do is lie there. Makes you feel unwanted, useless and really bored.
So for those of you, who see people like that, stop and care for them, because they really need it.

Really felt like an old person when i was in the hospital, where people had to feed you, bathe you, clothe you, help you to take water, and do basically everything for you. Like a baby, i had to learn to walk again, sit up though it was really painful and eventually learn to bathe myself, get myself out of bed and walk for long periods of time.

Now I'm still recovering! But i know i'll get there:) It takes time, plenty of time.
I think what i hate most is i cannot eat chilli or chicken for like 1 month!? All day I eat fish and nothing but fish! Hhaha..and i cannot eat my favourite ba cho because there is black sauce in it, neither can i eat black pepper crab because it is seafood. haiyoo!! i think i will lose weight le, although i really got no more fat to lose, cos now i look like some long stick! seriously..haha.

OKAY..so i must TAHAN!!! and hang in there cos it's for my own body good. so i shall not grumble anymore!!! :)

Here are some pics for you to see!

This is my IV drip for 4 days! my vein still hurts from it:(
these are my companions in hospital! :) they make my whole bed brighten up! hehe.
Fruit baskets and bouquets i received. thank you all!
This is me looking all healthy and happy on Friday! hehe..thats when i was free from all IV drips! yay!

tata..that's all i have for now! see ya!

2009-07-22T15:31:00.003+08:00

Hi people, i'm back to blogging after MIA-ing for a week or so.

Firstly wanna thank these people for coming to visit me while in hospital, your presence really made me feel alot better amidst the pain.

-Pastor CK/Claire: Thank you for taking time to visit even though i know you both have a busy and tight schedule. Thank you for always being there! (:

-Kenneth/Serena/Jordan: Thank you for your cute bear and flowers, it brightened up my first day in hospital which was the hardest:)

-Elgin/Eugene: Thank you for taking time off SOT to come and visit, really appreciate the care and concern you've both showed! and the sunflower really did make me happier:)

-Jin lih: Thank you for coming even though hui juan pang seh u..haha! really thank you for the very sweet letter:) really thankful to have u as a good friend!

-Zi qian/Alicia: If you do read this, thank you for dropping by and for your concern! hope that your grandfather is much better now!

-CG members: Thank you for coming! i'll be back in cg soon!!!! (:

-Christina (my sis' cgl): really was suprised when you came, don't think you'll ever read this, but thank you for your thoughtfulness and even though i'm only ur member's sister, you still made time to see me. I'm very touched:)

-Auntie Chiew Mun (my mother's good friend): thank you for your encouragement and sharing with me ur slipped disc experience, knowing that i'm not alone!

-Robson: you made me have an appetite to eat apples! lol..thank you for dropping by though you ended school late! :) i have ur instant noodles with me still from Taiwan! lol..pass it to u soon okie!

-Hui Juan:Woman! thank you for dropping by, even though its only like 10 mins, but glad i got to see you!:) hehe jia you for your job! u can do it!

-Jermain: Thank you for helping me with the cell group! really appreciate it:)

-Cheryl/Barnet:HAHa..i really got shocked when you appeared at my X-ray place, but thank you for ur time and effort to come down even though u may be busy with fyp and what not..lol..and to both of you, thanks for cracking jokes to make me laugh. It really brightened my stay in the hospital!hehe!

-Ben wang: thank you too for making time to come! and for ur very lame but effective jokes. haha..laughter is the best medicine! i will always rem your "Arise, take up ur bed and walk!" joke. HAH!!!!

Thank you also to everyone who prayed for me, sent me smses- i'm deeply grateful for your love and care! I feel really blessed by it:)

Thank you to my parents, sister and Leo.

You all have been the pillars in my life all the while, and never fail to support me when i need help.

Mummy thank you for always being there showering me with ur unconditional love and care.

Poppy, thank you for taking leave to take care of me too, i'm really proud to have a dad like you!

Jie jie & Leo, thank you for coming everynight and bringing grover to brighten my day:) love ya loads!

MOST OF ALL,

Thank you Jesus because You saved the day and guided the surgeon's hands and the team that operated on me. It was very difficult initially and many sleepless moments but like what the bible says "When I awake, I'm still with You", and I could feel Your tangible presence in my life.

Thank you for giving me the endurance through the pain and for courage to stand up and be myself again. I love you Lord, and thank you for your complete healing! Amen:)

2009-07-13T22:26:00.004+08:00

Exactly 12 hours to my admission to NUH.

Don't really know what to say, or feel. I'm just preparing myself mentally for the pain i would experience and standing on God's promises like what He showed me in Psalms 27.

Psalm 27

A Psalm of David.

¹ The LORD is my light and my salvation;
Whom shall I fear?
The LORD is the strength of my life;
Of whom shall I be afraid?
² When the wicked came against me
To eat up my flesh,
My enemies and foes,
They stumbled and fell.
³ Though an army may encamp against me,
My heart shall not fear;
Though war may rise against me,
In this I will be confident.

⁴ One thing I have desired of the LORD,
That will I seek:
That I may dwell in the house of the LORD
All the days of my life,
To behold the beauty of the LORD,
And to inquire in His temple.
⁵ For in the time of trouble
He shall hide me in His pavilion;
In the secret place of His tabernacle
He shall hide me;
He shall set me high upon a rock.

⁶ And now my head shall be lifted up above my enemies all around me;
Therefore I will offer sacrifices of joy in His tabernacle;
I will sing, yes, I will sing praises to the LORD.

⁷ Hear, O LORD, when I cry with my voice!
Have mercy also upon me, and answer me.
⁸ When You said, “Seek My face,”
My heart said to You, “Your face, LORD, I will seek.”
⁹ Do not hide Your face from me;
Do not turn Your servant away in anger;
You have been my help;
Do not leave me nor forsake me,
O God of my salvation.
¹⁰ When my father and my mother forsake me,
Then the LORD will take care of me.

¹¹ Teach me Your way, O LORD,
And lead me in a smooth path, because of my enemies.
¹² Do not deliver me to the will of my adversaries;
For false witnesses have risen against me,
And such as breathe out violence.
¹³ I would have lost heart, unless I had believed
That I would see the goodness of the LORD
In the land of the living.

¹⁴ Wait on the LORD;
Be of good courage,
And He shall strengthen your heart;
Wait, I say, on the LORD!

I will be still and know You are God. In every season, You are still God and I have a reason to sing.:)

Faith is not believing that God can, It is believing that WILL do it -SUN Ho.

Lord, I will believe in your goodness. (:

Faith is a reasoned trust!

2009-07-12T00:19:00.003+08:00

Today Dr AR Bernard really blew the roof off Hall 8 with his message!! it was refreshing, fresh and most importantly mind-blasting. I love his sermons seriously.

Today he said something which really came as a revelation to me. It is about Faith.

Faith has three dimensions:
1) Intellectual
2) Emotional
3) Volitional

Faith is a REASONED TRUST IN JESUS. it isn't some feeling or some experience only.

Just like the woman with the issue of blood, she reasoned in her mind that if she could touch the hem of Jesus' garment, She would be healed. Then she acted on her faith (that has been reasoned) and then stretched forth her hands. And she was healed!

So before you act in faith , always go for a process of reasoning! Reason what kind of person God is, and what He can do!

I think it's the same for me, I've always been a thinking/reasoning kind of person.
When AR bernard said today that faith is a reasoned trust, suddenly there was this click in my spirit and i realise that it has been sth i've been doing all these while but never really occured to me.

When temptations come from the devil to tempt you and your identity in Christ, we are not supposed to just let it come! We need to have this reasoned trust, a trust based on facts, not just feelings--and this will keep us from being moved. It is this reasoned trust that will be the foundation in your life when storms come.

So the moral of the story is: Satan is after your trust in God! So he attacks you intellectually and emotionally to ultimately separate you from God! So don't ever let your trust in God waiver, because He is completely good and the Devil is completely bad.

NICE SONG!

2009-07-08T02:58:00.001+08:00

This is the nice song i'm learning now! The lyrics is really sad! Enjoy:)

Taiwan!!

2009-07-05T21:30:00.008+08:00

Hey peeps!
I'm back from Taiwan! LOTSA fun things and hilarious things happened on the trip! Really enjoyed every second of it, wanna go back to taiwan again! there are so many places that we havent gone to yet!

Here's a SHOUT OUT to my taiwan groupie:)
To Zhi Hong- your laughter is SOOOooooo contagious. i can literally play your laughter in my head now. hahaha! Once u start laughing, i can't stop laughing too. I'll just burst! hahahahaa. really was fun having you play hilarious games with ben, and the ape thingy u guys did. hahaha! will always rem you suaning me- "Can you stop eating??????!!!!"..hahahah!

To Samantha!-thank you for being my fashion stylist and telling me i should "STOP BUYING!" stuff the whole trip, and your funnie jokes too. you and ben really get super lame man! indeed, getting to know you better is one of the highlights of this trip!!:) and i must say that you are a very sweet girlfriend! hahah!:) keep it that way man! rock on!:D

To Ben: you are really.........a joke spoiler with a very fast brain to learn things. hahahah! spoil the joke until i think it's funny. haha! but thanks for helping me with my heavy bag throughout the whole trip; i think i'm kinda very bad! hahaha. without you, i think half of the trip would be boring. lol. and. i'm so happy with your NEW LOOK!!! :) *put your hands in the air!*

To ALL in the GROUP: really had many Kodak moments that i still remember vividly throughout the whole trip. I must apologise for the times when i'm "sian" and not feeling well, but i really thank God that we managed to make this trip happen. It's been a great 8 days together and let's rock on with our new looks!!!:D Still can't believe I was so "gong" to think someone was knocking on our door and i went to open it somemore. WAHAHAH! so stupid can! lol...*embarrassed*. But THANK YOU peeps for putting up with my nonsense and shopping craze haha! :D luv ya guys man!!

Some highlights of the trip:

1) New life Church- listened to Pst Tan preach the E1R1 sermon in Chinese!!!:) He's so so power man!!!! And when i stepped into New life, I just felt so homely, cos everything is so much like CHC, and the presence of God is really strong there, can really feel the pple's hunger, especially the way they say "amen" to everything", really touched me deeply! We even got to talk to Pst Tan and took photo with Pst Abraham Ku, thanks to Sam's courage and boldness! hahaha!

2) Luxy- a club to chill out, it was a very "all sorts of emotions coming out" kinda experience. At first, felt scared cos never really been to such places, then felt "stoned" cos didnt know what to do. Thankfully after i got into the mood and told myself to relax and just enjoy, it became really fun! especially when we played 5-10-15-20 game! haha..:)

3) Makeover-all of us went to colour and highlight our hair!! :) togetherness man! lol..but i felt it was a really good thing to do, and we all really looked different and nice. I must say the most drastic change is Ben. His hair colour really rocks. the hair stylist is power man. i love my hair colour too:) hehe..and so CHEAP!!!:D wohoo. really 賺到!! haha!

4) Chiang Kai Shek Memorial Hall- we are really crazy man. Hahha! we filmed all sorts of stupid "documentaries" and videos to entertain ourselves. It was so funny when ben was trying to do the jump shot and some stranger came and took a picture of him too! hahahaha!!!! the ultimate one is when we did the documentary on the "legend of the first man to roll down the steps of the memorial hall without dying". hahaha!! *All readers,Pls stay tuned into Facebook for more updates and videos! lol.* then you'll know what i'm talking abt!

5) Yehliu-The scenery is just breathtaking here. And the wind, makes u feel like flying. :) The best part about it was the jump shots we took. haha!! the guys really nailed it man. it was so freaking HILARIOUS!!! haha...but the sun was so hot, until i got sunburned, and i still have the mark now!!! ohhh no!!

Haha, enough said for now, but on hindsight, in this trip, I discovered myself more, discovered Taiwan more, and discovered my tour mates more too:)
All i can say is no one is perfect, and neither am I. We're all growing into maturity!:)
But i'm glad we had CLEAN, GOOD FUN on this trip!!! :D

So from now, it's gonna get busy, and tiring, and will prob be a tougher period for me in this whole year, but I WILL GET THROUGH THE RAIN!:)
Jia you Darice!!:)

And finally , to end off this post:

By Your Side
by Tenth Avenue North

Why are you striving these days
Why are you trying to earn grace
Why are you crying
Let me lift up your face
Just don't turn away

Why are you looking for love
Why are you still searching as if I'm not enough
To where will you go child
Tell me where will you run
To where will you run

And I'll be by your side
Wherever you fall
In the dead of night
Whenever you call
And please don't fight
These hands that are holding you
My hands are holding you

Look at these hands and my side
They swallowed the grave on that night
When I drank the world's sin
So I could carry you in
And give you life
I want to give you life

Cause I, I love you
I want you to know
That I, I love you
I'll never let you go

This is a really nice song introduced by Wang (with a slang) Ben!
Been listening to it and it sounds so secular, but yet the song is like Jesus telling us how much He loves us, like any other love song would.

Listen to it, as it plays on my blog:)

2009-06-20T00:33:00.002+08:00

Life is fragile.

It really makes me sad to read about this little girl, who is only 4 years old and suffering from cancer.
Makes me think about how we should treasure one another more, and keep ourselves in good health.
I pray that Charmaine will get well, and she will survive this ordeal. She's such a cute and adorable girl, and it saddens my heart that she has to undergo so many surgeries and chemotherapy.
If you have time, do read these two articles.

http://www.tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,204956,00.html

http://ourfeistyprincess.blogspot.com

2009-06-14T00:51:00.003+08:00

i feel a well of emotions rising, but i can't seem to put them into words.

It's going to be a time of rest, recuperation and most importantly, i think a time to rewire my belief system and habits again.

Well, I'll be going for reconstructive surgery for my spine, in July. It's actually to fuse my bone together so that my spine will be straightened.
Come to think of it, I am prepared for it, but yet, at the same time, i'm not.

I mean, who can be ready for a major operation like that?

I think it is going to take a lot of determination and courage on my part and discipline to do things correctly so that I will recover fast.
At least, I know that I will make it and am determined to get well in the fastest possible time.

And i guess God's timing is really the best.
This operation has been delayed for 6 years now, and finally I am reallly doing it.

So..pls pray for me everyone!:) I'm riding on ur prayers!

Sometimes i feel so indebted to my parents.
I Really really do.
The amount of money spent on the operation is alot alot alot. And my heart wrenches everytime i think of how much they have to sacrifice for it.
Haiz.
I just pray that I will be able to earn alot of money next time and provide for them whatever they need and want, because what they have given up for me, is really alot.
And I think sometimes I wish i could have the money to pay for my own things and not need to rely on them anymore.
Oh wells, I guess it'll be a few more years before that can happen!

Anyway, i trust in God with all my heart.
Everything is gonna be okay:)
Everything will be alright!:)

I am strong and have always been! You can do it, Darice Jill. I believe in you.

NICE!

2009-06-13T00:19:00.001+08:00

This is a really nice duet. Shall sing this when i go to KTV soon!!!(: hehehe..maybe in Taiwan?(:

BUSY WEEK!

2009-06-06T00:07:00.002+08:00

It's really been a interesting, fun and fruitful week!

Monday I went to school at 6pm-9pm and then cabbed down to Dinner with Aaron, Yu Jie, Cheryl, Tina, Jason Jiang, Sebastian, Lina, Javier and Jermain @ Suntec Fish & Co.

Tuesday went to school (again) early in the morning, did my experiment and had great results!:D yay! After that, i went down to JW for leader's meeting with Pst Tan.
It was a first ever cell group leaders forum! Pretty cool stuff.(:

Wednesday I woke up late @ 1030am! rushed to suntec office and did some Youth camp stuff.
Then I went to school(Again!) and had a safety briefing for lab precautions. LOL. Thereafter, I headed down to Bugis for MY POP PIANO CLASS!!!!(:

Okay lah, I think the instructor is not particularly friendly (i think my expectation must be adjusted too) but I had fun learning stuff. I learnt alot on just my first lesson. Much more to go, but i'm really getting addicted to playing piano! :D YAY!

So far I have been practising these songs:
童話
說好的幸福呢
Love Story (Not the taylor swift one, but the oldie)
I just want you

Yay:D

Thursday, I went to meet my friend for a short while @ Tiong bharu then headed to CHINATOWN! for a KTV session with Gary , Cheryl, Ben, Leslie & JJ! hee hee.
I love to sing too ...so i think i sing until I wanna break the glass liao. happiness!!
After that, Kee liang, Jermain and myself met at Kenneth's office to settle youth camp stuff.
So..I slept at 6.30am in the morning, and I think I must have gone crazy after 12midnight, cos i was laughing crazily. lol....

FRIDAY!
Go to school AGAIN! had a great journal club session followed by usual changing medium stuff.
Went for hospital checkup then went to CWBS, Song of Solomon! yippeee!!!
The power and presence of God is soooo strong. It's amazing. Every session of the bible study has drawn me closer to God again.
I somehow think that this is what we need in our weekend services too. Cos this is the exact same feeling I have in the services when I first came to church.
The purity, the anointing is wow. I think we really need that kind of presence in our services once more.:) Of course now is good, but it can always be better.

Enough about me....why don't u tag on my board and write sth interesting u did this week? LOL!

See ya guys soon! It's been a long long long week. Next week willl be another long long long week. Alright tata!!!(:

Create in me a clean heart

2009-05-30T00:22:00.002+08:00

Create in me, a new heart..
one that's after You.
Place in me..a deep desire to know You as I'm known.

Set my feet, in Your ways.
To live worthy of your call,
Draw Me Near to You Lord,
Every single day.

I just want to be,
more like you,
Walk with You beside me Lord,
Won't You be my guide,
place your heart,
inside my soul,
A Heart that's ever true,
One that's after You.

Thank you Lord, for reminding me of the times i used to spend hours in Your Presence.
I want that back badly again! It's so good to be abiding in the secret place of the Most High.
I love you Daddy!:)

2009-05-26T00:43:00.002+08:00

VISUALIZE.

BELIEVE.

RECEIVE.

IT IS MINE.

I CAN SEE IT.

I WILL PRAISE YOU FOR I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE! AND THAT MY SOUL KNOWS VERY WELL!

THANK YOU LORD, for everything you HAVE done and are ABOUT to do! :)

2009-05-17T21:38:00.002+08:00

I wanna hurry learn to play pop piano!!
my class starts only on June 3! That is like two weeks away!

I have a crazy dream, to be able to play and sing! I wanna achieve that!

Today ,during NexGen, Dev shared a great message on recreation.
Recreation is about new perspective.

Just like the book "Rest of God" says, that the Sabbath is about recreating yourself.

I want to take this time learning the piano to re-create myself and play well.
I know it will be busy with honour's project and youth camp and CCP, BUT! I am determined to learn and play it well.

It is true, that "We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us".
I used to be bad at directions, now i am much better at it!
I used to only sing in the bathroom or in the car, now i sing on stage:)
I used to think i was clumsy with pipettes, now i am doing it everyday!:)
truly it is in us, if we are willing to discover ourselves again, our true talents are already there!:)

Thank you Jesus!:)
My heart is truly filled with gratitude.
Our church has really come far from when i first joined. I am so happy to be part of City Harvest Church, and I will and must never take it forgranted.
Guard our hearts well, for out of it flows the issues of life.

I make a decision not to judge people, not to criticise them especially if they are in the House of God, brothers and sisters.
Sometimes i hear stories of people not liking one another, in the church. And when i say this, don't worry i'm not referring to anyone in particular, but rather the issue and values behind it. :)
But deep in our hearts, isn't God merciful and graceful? Shouldn't the church all the more be accepting of each other's imperfections?

The answer is YES. so, even if u don't like a person, keep the opinions to yourself.
Because this is the House of God, where strife will NOT have a place. I believe what the Bible says is true, that you will be judged with the same judgement you use on another person.

Why not before judging another person's speck in the eye, you judge the log in ur own eye first?

Just a penny for your thoughts.:)

Holidays!

2009-05-13T20:53:00.003+08:00

Heyo everyone!

It's happy holidays time.. but not for me!
i've literally got no holidays.:(

I've just started my honour's year project already. can u beat that?
I just ended school exams last thurs, and now i am already going back to school! omgosh.

But the upside is.i'll be going to taiwan with Sam, Zhi Hong and Ben..and hopefully a few others in late June to early July!
We are gonna go Taipei and sweep the entire place with our bare hands! LOL.!! i'm so excited!!!!
YAY! i'm looking forward to it, because that will be the ONLY holiday i will have until DECEMBER.my goodness.

Anyway it's been a fruitful few days..from going to school, to leader's meeting, to signing up for class, to cutting hair!

Another new thing happening is that i'm gonna take up pop piano! My lesson will be on every Wednesday Night, 7.45pm!=)
I'm learning at this school called Play By Ear Music School , @ Bugis village.
The school is pretty cool stuff! I AM VERY EXCITED!

i hope i can learn and play in church, for youth camps in future and play and sing at the same time! That is my goal!!!!:D

okay i know i'm super high now! but that's cos i'm happy to be able to fulfill the goals i set before exams. I must work on my music and singing skills! i want to do it well this time, cannot learn it halfway anymore!!!

yeay! =) i shall play a piece for everyone soon!

LOVE STORY MEETS VIVA LA VIDA (arranged by Jon Schmidt)

2009-05-09T01:53:00.002+08:00

LOVE STORY MEETS VIVA LA VIDA (arranged by Jon Schmidt)

Omgosh! I TOTALLY DIG THIS ARRANGEMENT!!!!

sooooo nice!
can u beat that? cello playing with a drum? plus viva la vida on piano!

Omgosh.. i'm so totally learning pop piano!!! ahh!! DO ENJOY!!=)

IT'S OVER!

2009-04-25T23:11:00.004+08:00

One week of studying my brain with my brain, so that i can use my brain during the exam is indeed very brainy..and very TIRING!

it's crazy.
But you know what? it makes me all the more wonder how the heck did God come up with all these creative ideas to make our brain work as it does?

IT'S UTTERLY AWESOME. and i'm speechless.
Don't believe me, go ask other life science students, who are taking Cardio (Myrna) and Immunology (Juan and Lin Ling) and they'll tell you jolly well how many 10298377409110927301 molecules our body has.

really got 019372981461418341 names to remember man..
but I LIKE!
cos it always reminds me that i am "Fearfully and wonderfully made"!

Amen to that! =)

So, i'm off to relax a little, before starting my next 8 day battle with Pharmacology- my antidepressant drugs and anti-psychotics. lol..
looks like i'm becoming psychotic!
JIA YOU DARICE! YOU CAN DO IT!!!=)
Second upper! second upper! second upper!
i can see it--i can have it!!!!! woohoo! it's coming to me now baby!!!

And those mid year exams students, STUDY HARD! we shall be more than conquerors together yea!=) will be praying for you too!=)

TATA!

2009-04-15T18:14:00.000+08:00

BE A HAPPY PERSON!
In God's Presence, there is fullness of J-O-Y!

God wants each and every one of us to be happy in life, serving him with a big wide smile :D rather than a frowning face "( !

Stretch yourself and be happy!!:)

Reflections

2009-04-15T17:35:00.002+08:00

Okay..this is gonna be very nostalgic post! =)

Today i was on Bus 74 going home from school, and i caught Belinda in the show "Come and dance with me", on TV Mobile..

Woah..i'm really inspired by her determination to learn the different types of dance, like hip hop, popping, and you name it, she tried it.

I must say that in the short moments watching that show, i was reminded of the many things i wanna do and learn since young, but never got down to doing it. Hmm let me recount my "artistic" journey!!

From young i learnt ballet, from 5 years old! but i stopped it at sec 4/JC1..which means i danced for a total of 12 years! wow...thats really quite long la.

Then even when i'm young i learnt organ from 3 years old, but stopped cos my mum didn't like the teacher. Then i tried Sonata School of Music @ Compass point, but the teacher is like no good also..:( then i threw my really old organ away!:( that's sth that really grew up with me.

Talking about organ, i rem when i came to church i was asked by Kenneth to play the keyboard for our Christmas party..wow..i really fell in love with playing the keyboard for worship. Always wanted to learn properly how to play the different chords and progression and stuff, but never got down to find a place to learn or a teacher!
Anyone out there wanna teach me??? hehehe =)

Then..never learn keyboard nevermind, i stopped playing cos no more organ at home!
But i found a new pasttime and guess what is that?!
SINGING! =)=)
hahaha..so anyway, yeap now i am indeed learning singing, but not really a personal singing teacher. But i am determined to get there soon!

Thinking about all these talents that God has placed into every single one of us, i think it really is our responsibility and duty to develop and grow them for His glory!
Well, one thing for sure is i love Music! I think that is sth God created which is so so so perfect and beautiful.

Yes! Darice must find time to learn keyboard again! and learn singing for real =) must find teacher and earn lotsa money to sponsor my lessons hehe=)
I cannot be too busy to grow as a person holistically, musically and artistically!!

next time when i have kids, i MUST make sure they are musically inclined!! and that they will not be like me, everything learn halfway!! nonono!
But! it's never too late..so i shall start now~
Okay, must do all these once my exams are OVER!!!!! woohoo!! looking forward to the holidays!=)

TATA!

EASTER!

2009-04-11T00:44:00.002+08:00

It's Easter!=)

Okay..by right its Good Friday!=)

hehe..still rem last time when i went to my frist Easter service in CHC..i was wearing a pink skirt!lol..i still remember u know!

I was sitting on the musician side slope..lol ..like right at the top there. not very good view but still good la.

Anyway, really happy that many of ying hui's friends got saved today!
Indeed when God's people humble themselves, God will turn and hear from Heaven and heal our land!

=) Anyway, this year's drama may not be as funny,BUT..i felt it was still refreshing, and an angle which has never been explored before in our church dramas..

so..if u dunnno what i'm talking about and would like to watch it for yourself, call me!!!=)=)

But i definitely can feel the kind of effort and heart the actors put in..and u can really feel it in the air..

Jesus is and will always be my best friend!=)
Jesus is our Saviour , but also our Lord!
He is the same yesterday, today and FOREVER!
I love you Lord! You are always in my heart!

I realise, sometimes, it's really the simple things that make all the difference.
I know sometimes i just lose it..but in the House of God, I'll find it back again.

Next week got three tests, and i've only studied half for all my subjects so far..and still going svcs tmr and sunday!
God, i really need Your grace to retain the people from Easter and to also be able to do well in next week's test.

I've always believed that even though i have lesser time than others, God will help me to study efficiently..so i must be focused!! I cannot be easily distracted!

And i know God will grant me His heavenly wisdom to do well.
YES! i must confess!
I'm a dean's list student!
I'm a dean's list student! Woohoo!!

See it, believe it, and i will have it!

BACK!

2009-03-31T09:18:00.002+08:00

Yay, i'm finally back here to blog again!

Sitting in NUS now!=)
So..the last few weeks have been crazy!

Presentations, reports, tests are never ending indeed.

But i'm happy that I did my best to present my research!
On saturday, i went back to school for lab meeting with all my lab collegues (pple who are almost twice my age!..:S)

and there, i had to present my research project i have been doing for the last three to four months.
Well, it has been one fantastic experience, as many of you know, i went back to school in the middle of the night quite a few times, stayed in school till unearthly hours.
There was once, i went to school at 2am and stayed there till the next day and didnt go home lor!!!!

but on hindsight, God is really GOOD! He has truly opened this door for me, and i am still amazed how this opportunity came about!

To be able to do research under the NUH O&G Dept is really a privilege and I must not be complacent! I must read up more and more and start being independent to learn the necessary things and acquire the thinking skills!! Yes, Darice! you can do it!

So anyway, it was pretty freaky presenting my work in front of at least 20 researchers who know so much more than me! And the worst thing is the computer didnt have my FONT! so the formatting went crazy. Totally C.M.I..BUT! it was all good in the end.

So i learnt, no matter what questions they throw you,just be C.O.O.L and think ")
Even if the highest ranking professor is there, it doesn't matter.
It is your confidence in yourself that matters.
Like any driving test- everyone can drive, but it is whether you go there believing you can pass the test or not which really will determine the final result.

=) So..its the final three weeks of the semester. Time FLIES FLIES FLIES FLIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so fast lar...Aiyo..
But I am looking forward to the holidays! I hope i really can go holiday to Taiwan with Sam, Zhi Hong, Ben and Ailin etc..OR Japan with family.

I've not taken a plane since...........2002. WOAH 7 YEARS LEH!
i better stop being a mountain tortoise! heheheh!

And congratulations to Kenneth and Serena for the birth of baby JORDAN!
His eyes are so cute and very very very adorable! I'm sure he will be very handsome next time!
=)

2009-03-02T08:23:00.002+08:00

Hahahaha.

I must post this random thing i saw while at Julia's house downstairs yesterday..

So..i parked the car at some random lot and didnt even bother to park according to the lines since there was practically nobody anyway.

So another woman happened to also be parking at the lot near mine,

and after i talked for about 20 mins,

the woman continued to drive out and reverse back and do it again and again for 3-4 times!!!!!!

After that, she even came out of the car to see where the parking lot lines were at and went back in to try it another 2-3 times!

So..as i sat in the car talking for about half an hour, the lady STILL continued parking her car..
i think she must be a super perfectionist or sth?
IT WAS HILARIOUS!!!!!!

omgosh..okay i think i'm bad to laugh at people..but the FUNNIEST thing is..
after the lady brought her mother upstairs to go home,
she came down again, and she DROVE OFF.

so the conclusion was, she attempted to park her car to the straightest possible position, so that she could drive offf smoothly.... -.-

i'm really amazed. hahahahaha!!!!

okay this is a bimbotic post.
ignore me! LOL

2009-02-24T00:10:00.001+08:00

My hearts cry..

King of The BroKen

We your children pray Lord
humbly seek your face
We turn from our sin Lord
You hear us as we pray

Healing King of nations
Let your kingdom come
Purify your church Lord
Your glory over us

Heal us, forgive us
restore our hearts again
fill us, breathe upon us

Jesus, Jesus
healer of nations, hope of salvation, (hope of the world)
Jesus, Jesus
King of our hearts, King of the broken

Lover of the wounded
Defender of the weak
friend of the forgotten
You wipe away our tears
Your tears are falling down

Until the day, you wipe away every tear, and create a new heaven and earth, i cling on to You, my Lord.
You are my King.

Jokes from Botak Jones

2009-02-21T19:49:00.003+08:00

Hello!! now my blog is becoming more entertaining to read!

Today i had Botak Jones for dinner cos my sis had a party at home..anyway here's some really funny jokes that i found on the packaging of Botak Jones.:D ENJOY!!!

Elevator Joke:
I was on an elevator the other day and the operator kept calling me Son.
I said, " Why do you call me 'Son'? You're not my father.
He said, "i brought you up, didn't I?"

LOL!!!

Software of a husband Joke:

"Dear Tech Support:

last year i upgraded from Boyfriend 5.0 to Husband 1.0 and noticed a slowdown in the performance of the flower and jewelry applications that had operated flawlessly under the Boyfriend 5.0 system.

In addition, Husband 1.0 uninstalled many other valuable programs such as Romance 9.9, and installed undesirable programs such as NFL 7.4, NBA 3.2 and NHL 4.1.

Conversation 8.0 also no longer runs, and housecleaning 2.6 simply crashes the system.

I've tried running Nagging 5.3 to fix these problems, but to no avail.

What can I do?

Signed, DESPERATE.

LOLOLOLOL! Just in time for Pst kong's messages. ahhahahha.

Some Quotes that I found really meaningful:

" Everyone has a photographic memory, some just don't have film!"

"Nothing in life is to be feared. It is only to be understood."- Marie Curie

"The early bird may get the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese!" :)

"If you give, you will always have."

"Rarely do we find men who willingly engage in hard, solid thinking. There is an almost unicersal quest for easy answers and half-baked solutions. Nothing pains some people more than having to think." - Martin Luther King Jr.

Hope you are inspired:) because, i am!

and all of you should really check out: http://www.compassionart.tv/
It is really a very good project! All the world's best worship leaders coming together and writing songs for charity! Be inspired!
This is the lyrics for one of the songs written. Amazing!

Come to the water

there’s a war going on just across the street
there’s a rage that’s burning to an angry beat
I can feel the thirst but there’s no relief
we need a river
there’s a sound in the distance like a thunder cloud
waiting for the rain while the sun beats down
Can you feel it rising from the underground?
we need a river

oh let justice roll like rivers,
oh let mercy flow with love, love

Come to the water, come to the water of life
It will never run dry
Come to the water, run to the water of life
It will never run dry
there’s a cry from the child in the factory
there’s a prayer for the prisoners of poverty
Save us from the greed and the apathy
we need a river

there’s a hope like a flood running down our street
we’re an army of peacemakers on our feet
take us to the place love and mercy meet
there is a river

RANDOM

2009-02-20T23:34:00.005+08:00

HEYLO EVERYONE!

GOOD NEWS!

I appeared on TV yesterday!

Check out the link here!:)

ENJOY! and yes..i'm famous already!:)

Hahahahahahaa!!!!

2009-02-16T00:12:00.002+08:00

Wow.

what a week it has been.

I've been thoroughly tested to my limit this week.

Tues night, after coming home from meeting, i received an sms to go to school to collect a research sample (i can't disclose what it is) .. and that was 1.30am in the morning.

By the time i left home and reached school it was 2.30am.
I got the sample, went back to lab, called the Campus security to let me into the building.. 3.00am.

Then.. i did what i had to do with the sample.. and ended at 6.00am.

i was half asleep during then.
At 6.00am i obviously couldn't have gone home since i had class at 10am..
so i stayed and STUDIED for my test until 10am.
i actually am proud that i managed to study everything finish and be able to do confidently 90% of the questions.

pray that i'll get an A+ for this test and module!

SO.. i didn't sleep the whole night, had a test the next day..
and i didn't get home till 6pm.
I still didn't sleep, till 12am.

okay..i'm sure many of you don't sleep sometimes too..but yea i guess for me.. it was really draining cos i wasn't playing..i had to use my brain alot of the time i was awake.
Ask huijuan..i was seriously sleeping during all the lectures cos i couldn't take it anymore!

Thank God for His grace and mercy though, that i managed to really pull through the week and got positive results in some of the expts i did.

Thank God for giving me magic fingers..i confess! my cells will grow into great looking, cobbled stone shape EPCs! and the RNA conc will be above 400! i believe! i see it! :) yea!

So..this is like my whole week that went by..my body clocked literally got re-wired.
And of course, there was morning prayer.and it was phenomenal! :) always love to pray in the morning, though its hard to get out of bed, but there's such a sweet and fresh presence in the morning that you can't experience at any other time of the day.
You should really try!

Finally, Valentine's Day came!
Well.. you know who you are. and just wanna say thank you for all the presents you gave to me, and the nice place we went to!
i am quite shocked actually as to how much you are willing to spend on the whole night!
But thank you once again! :)

So..i hope this week, will be less hectic for me.
I must rem the Sabbath day, and keep it holy.
God i need You more than i ever did now. Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.

2009-02-11T00:38:00.003+08:00

Lab is fun but really tiring..

i'm here to just destress!!! :)

Singing lessons has officially started,
we've learnt the proper breathing technique, and some basic stuff about vocal chords and how we produce sounds.

I'm excited about saturday's lesson! gotta sing a song, and i dunno what to sing! someone suggest some song to me??!!

Been really in a zoned out state these few weeks,

OH GOD! PLEASE give me strength to keep walking on.
I'm relying on ur strength and rest.

break my heart for what breaks Yours.

2009-02-09T23:38:00.003+08:00

back!
after almost two weeks without my computer.

so..my hard disk officially crashed and there goes all my photos..
i am going to invest in a hard disk and use time machine!!! argh..cannot let it happen again..:O

And ..these few days.. i guess things are just getting a bit weird.
It's valentine's day but i have mixed feelings about it.
and i think it's just different people will experience different things this week.
i used to just see valentine's as a day like any normal day. but i think my perspective is changing and so i should just relax and let go of all my reasoning in my mind.
i just hope i will understand myself better in everything i do. Wake up my own idea.
the only thing i'm most scared of..is really myself and my own expectations. :S

ANYWAY.. i shall not talk about such things..
i shall go study hard for my test.

you will not believe that i have been going back to school every week, at 12am.. omg..
can you believe i'm so "into school" (quoting robson's blog).

Corporate Change

2009-01-29T00:56:00.002+08:00

Heya everyone!

It's been such a fruitful CNY...my hong bao really going from glory to glory!:)

all thanks to my VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY GENEROUS POPPY AND MUMMY!
honestly..now that i'm 21..
i kinda feel bad to take their money..
haiz..

if u saw my ang bao..i think u all will kill to be my parents daughter.
i caught one principle that morning when i wished them and did our normal "ritual" of blessing each other before we set off for visiting..

and that is really how parents will never hold back anything from their children.
Children are a lucky bunch! And i am really blessed to have great parents.
I must learn this principle so that in future when i have my own kids..i will bless them exceedingly, abundantly, richly, bountifully!!!

WOW.. really i'm still amazed at how much they gave me and my sister.

i mean we aren't young and my parents are only millionaires-to-be (speak positively ma!) haha..
but yet they are willing to spend so much on us..and on me especially.

i'm thankful in 2009..for my family!
I wanna earn lotsa money when i grow up and i want to buy my parents a big house and nice holiday tours to all over the world!!:D

thank you mummy and poppy for tirelessly investing in me..with ur money, with ur effort, nagging and with everything you've got.
Now i know why...God wants us to honour our parents as one of the MOST impt commandments..and the only one with a promise.

SIMPLY BECAUSE.. they gave their lives up for yours.
and i wanna bless them back 1000 fold when i become rich! :D heheheh

And..on a academic note..

i am determined to study hard this semester.. i will attend all my lectures and tutorials.
I will not pon anymore! i will do my homework! :D :D:D

YAY!
and also today we had a great time fellowshipping and meeting our CK family @ Pst's house!
Really had a great time of food and fellowship and also re-focus our priorities as a zone.
Yes..it will be phenomenal in the year to come and i believe i'm in for greater suprises!!:):)
HUAT AH!:D

hehehehe..lol

Chinese New Year!

2009-01-26T01:53:00.003+08:00

Wow! it's beeen a loonnnng awaited time..
and i finally got my iphone!!!!

AHHHH!!! I'M SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY! :D
i waited like 3 months for this to happen.
really struggled and didn't know which phone to buy.
my initial options were iTouch and a good camera phone (Sony Ericsson G900).
Then..too expensive..so i decided ..hmm maybe samsung omnia or nokia.
But after i explored further and realised that iphone has a downloadable application for forwarding sms.. (cos the iphone actually cannot forward sms..)
i decided to get this..as it was cheaper too.

so some of you might be wondering..cheaper? serious?
yea! i only paid effectively 308! hahaha.. lol
its 508 with 100 trade in for SE K800i (byebye my beloved camera phone..) and 100 rebate!
yay!woohoo!

And now..my life will never be boring again! hahah..got so many useful apps and nice podcasts to listen to!

there's john bevere, phil pringle, joyce meyer, ar bernard, joel osteen...discovery channel (normal and space)..there's obama's weekly addresses..

wow..never ending list..
STEVE JOBS IS A BRILLIANT MAN! I AM A HARD CORE APPLE FAN! and i'm really proud to say that! :D:D:D:D

hehehehe..i'm super high! hahaha. it's chinese new year! YAY!

and on a last note..
today everyone in my family picked a fortune cookie:
and in mine was something along the lines of: "romance and mystery will be in your life this year"... LOL!

hmm.yea if its really true..i wonder who it is? haha. *seriously clueless*

okay enough crappiness. good night!:D

Life

2009-01-23T00:59:00.001+08:00

It's been a seriously crazy and tiring week..but i shall confess that i'm energetic! i will have energy!!! lol

Wah..really can feel age catching up:( i like can't wake up in the morning..i sleep on buses like nobody is watching..
i sleep in lecture! omg..how can that be acceptable?

I better start getting some exercise man..since i stopped my gym at fitness first..i really am not fit!!! that is very very bad!

I used to go gym twice a week..
now..NOT ONCE! omg..how? how?

There's so much to do..so little time..i can't afford to be tired!
I know that one way i can help myself is to really sleep early. so i better go force myself to sleep now!!!!! and also..must spend time lingering in the presence.

It's always when i'm least connected to God that i run by my own strength.
On an ending note! THINGS ARE GREAT! AND WILL GET BETTER IN 2009!

Your Grace is sufficient for me Lord!

2009-01-17T23:47:00.002+08:00

God. i need your wisdom.

is there something i did wrongly? God light up my path with Your Word.

Your Word is a lamp unto my feet, a light unto my path!

And STILL. I believe that THERE IS MORE.

THERE MUST BE MORE.

Guide me Lord. I don't wanna be out of your will.

God's Divine Ways of working in our lives

2009-01-17T01:22:00.003+08:00

God is amazing isn't He?
He works in interesting and mysterious ways!:) Today, i've learnt the power of accountability too.

Looking back on my journey as a praise and worship leader,
i've been so mightily blessed in this area.

In 2007, when i enrolled into SOT, i never knew that i would be able to one day stand on the stage to sing to crowds of people.
Really..it never crossed my mind.
But..when the time came for a mission trip to KL DUMC..that is when everything changed.
I remember sitting the room and Yu Zhen is supposed to be the praise and worship leader.
But due to something that cropped up..she wasn't sure if she could make it for the trip.
So..Irene kinda asked me.."are you a CGL?"
so of course when i said yes..they asked if i could lead the praise and worship.

That day during the practice..i sang with all my heart!!! It was like any other time when i did my Quiet time with God. That kind of special moments.
Before that, i actually sang alot alot..in the bathroom la. haha. it was the preparation stage!
Few days before i left for the mission trip, i emailed Pastor CK abt this, and that i was really excited to lead the praise for the mission trip!

And because of that one email..the doors opened for me to lead in leader's meeting.
What an awesome privilege!
I must never take forgranted what has been given to me.
From then on, i grew to love leading worship and grew to love the Presence Of God more.

Most importantly, in 2008 when i learnt to play the guitar..i was able to bring my personal worship to a whole new dimension! That's when my singing also grew.:)

Before New year .. i emailed Pst again..to be accountable abt my life. And because of that..once again i had the opportunity to organise Poh's meeting!
It was amazing stuff! That is the power of accountability.
Doors open that easily!

Yesterday as i began to sing the song "Walau Seribu Rebah"..tears just began to flow down my eyes again.
That refuge and secret place that i love.
The rest of God.
It is one thing to be able to sing a song beautifully..its another to be able to have the song carry a certain rest in it.
Rest in God..that is the essence of worship for me personally.
When i plug into God..i always sense that rest coming upon me. That desperation for more.

That's why my motto: Stick close to His Presence!
Now, i know why 10,000 hours of practice would mean success.
I will sing 10,000 hours!
I will do my lab for 10,000 hours!!
=D

2009-01-14T00:55:00.002+08:00

Many are called, but few are chosen.

So many times, i think i'm in a position where i am happy at..but yet. i know There is More.
There is really more for my life.
There must be more in my studies.
There is more in my ministry!
There is more in my relationships with family and friends.

It is up to me whether or not i want to be chosen.
There shall not be any option for the things i want to achieve.
Who says I can't? God says I can. and that settles it.

"Clear lots of ground for your tents!
Make your tents large. Spread out! Think big!
Use plenty of rope,
drive the tent pegs deep.
You're going to need lots of elbow room
for your growing family.
You're going to take over whole nations;
you're going to resettle abandoned cities.
Don't be afraid—you're not going to be embarrassed.
Don't hold back—you're not going to come up short.

Yes..Darice Jill!!! Be consistent in ur life so that you can achieve what is in store for you.
Many can be called, but few pple pay the price required to be chosen.
Don't slack..don't cut slack for yourself.
Be strict with yourself.
I need to work doubly, triply hard.
I will do it with God as my guide.
I WILL BE CHOSEN!!!

2009-01-10T01:42:00.002+08:00

WOW! this test is really quite accurate hahahha! apart from the "seriousness of your love" part. I do not flirt around okay.

you can try it out too!!:)

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties. (hmm..i think this is true. hahaha!)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (yea..i like determined people. i do like smart..but serious..hmm..i think yes;but must be able to joke!!! i need to laugh all the time!)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (moods changing? eh..not really leh. i think i quite stable one. hahahah..)

oh..and if you are reading this..do tell me what you think on the tagboard! haha! it'll be interesting:)

2009-01-05T13:36:00.001+08:00

Before i rush out of the house..

I am being forced at gunpoint to say this:

THANK YOU ROBSON for loving me! OMG.

haha..no la..he didn't force me. but yea just for laughs!!!

Thank you robson for bringing alot of crappiness and laughter into my life!:D
okay.i shall go out now.

This is a random post! HAHAA!

2009-01-04T00:45:00.002+08:00

Today..was a day to pack my room!

I literally turned it upside down..and threw away alot of stuff!
Packed loads of books into the boxes.
You cannot imagine how many books i have just from sermon notes alone!!
OMG.
But..interestingly, during my packing, i came across the letters i wrote to God in a book, when i was primary 5 and 6. (cute right?!!?lol.)

And you know what i say written? I flipped through and realised in one entry i wrote:
"Lord, please give me a voice so that i can sing beautifully!"

Wow..at the moment it struck me that my prayers when i was in primary school had come true today.Amazing.
Not that my voice is that beautiful..but i actually can sing la. hahaha. amazing stuff huh!
God works in the most wonderful ways:)
I think it's great to write letters to God and keep them..so that you can see how u grow over the years!:)hehe. shall continue my rendezvous to God and see what happens in future:)

Oh..and today i had a really divine meeting with Summer @ River Island. WOAH.. I think God arranged it:) Cos..she has a friend who learns singing from Annabel..which means! I can also get her contact le! YAY!! have been thinking how to contact Annabel..finally i got it:) means i can start learning soon yea? hahaha!!!!

Anyway, i'm really thinking if i should study overseas..hmm..its really a tough decision.
I leave it in Your hands Lord, and I'm trusting that you'll have the right timing, right place for me:)

Before the new year gets tooo old.. i wanna make a tribute to the pple specifically whom i really want to thank:)

1) Mum and Poppy: You both have been the inspiration, the perspiration that keeps this family alive and kicking. Words cannot express the gratitude i feel. I feel really bad sometimes that i have to spend your money to study even when i'm 21 already. I need to earn big bucks and buy a big house for you both to stay in when i grow older!!! Burghley drive!!!! Thank you mummy and poppy (if you ever read this) .. for the tonnes of sacrifices you make! I shall be a dutiful daughter and keep the house clean always! What would i be without you both!:)

2) Pst CK: of course He is the man who has directly influenced my life in a tremendous way.
Serving God with you is always a pleasure because there are so many exciting and trendsetting ideas you have! I really thank God that he put me in ck zone from the start:) Thank you Pastor for your unwavering belief in each and every single leader and member in this zone.

3) Claire: You're the best zone SEC ever!!! Hahah. i dun think you'll read this. but helping out in admin is so much fun with you!:) Admin is never boring and i know its really tough at times..but! you have made our zone function as its supposed to be! Although still got lots of room to improve..but you have already done a phenomenal job! Thanks for all your encouragement in 2008 and your advice to me when i'm not doing well :)

4) Shaun: You're the person who has grown so so much in 2008..cos of all the canes i used on u. hahahah. but i'm glad you are who you are today. Don't ever think u've arrived!! :) But i really thank God that you are part of my life. I think we have a long journey in life together! Hang on buddy!:)

5) Hui Juan: Thank you for 3 wonderful years of friendship:) You never fail to make me smile with your hilarious jokes and lameness. 2008 was a year that we were less together ( i dun see u 24 hours a day, 7 days a week), but i know we have become closer cos we went to BINTAN together!! you are my bra my woman! hahaha (rem my bday card!!lol). Thank you for organising my bday dinner..it wouldnt be special if not for you!:) LOVE YA!!

6) Jasmine: Thank you for letting me mug at your place! Thank you for all these years of friendship we shared. And and..I really think that your tong tong is so cute:) Remember our pact of studying together this coming semester!!!:) hehe..i will motivate you and you will motivate me!! 4.0! we can do it!:)

7) Ying Ying: you're really my longest childhood friend! We've known each other since pri 4!!! woah..its such along time:) i'm glad we stayed as friends despite the troubles we've went through. Thank you for always being there and i am positively sure that you can reach your goal.:) believe in yourself k:) love you loads!!

8) JOY and LEO: i think you will never read this unless i show it to you..lol..but i still wanna say that JIE JIE.. i love you loads! I can never never imagine..that if you are not there for me..what would i become today? I am able to dress up because of you..i have funky clothes to wear cos of you..i have fights and quarels at home..also becos of you. hahah. And leo! Welcome to the Put! family:) You've brought loads of joy into my sister's life..and i know..you have also brought loads of it into this family. must take good care of my sis yea!! or i'll come chasing after you! hahahahah! I'm waiting to be a bridesmaid!!!lol.

Yeap..i kinda got brain block le..cant think of anything anymore. But i think i have loads of other pple to say thank you to! So dun feel left out k:) hahah. i will thank you someday!lol.

Okay..i'm off to catch House M.D. and then go to sleep. tata!!

Australia

2009-01-01T22:47:00.004+08:00

Blessed New Year to YOU..and you..and you.. and you!!!:)

Well, today i slept in late, till almost 12 noon!:)
Then went to catch the movie "Australia"!!

Australia is really the best movie i've watched this year..why?
Cos in 2009 i only watched one movie. hahahaha.. i know you are rolling your eyes now. LOL.

But i must say, its very very touching, very moving, exciting and has so much implications behind it.
I really love it when Nicole Kidman is so determined and stubborn to make something happen.
And most of all, the love that she has for the aboriginal kid, Naila, really makes me cry!
This show is all about love.
My favorite line in the show would be when Naila always says to Sarah Ashley, "I'll sing you to me".
WOW. it really touches the depths of my heart.
This movie is really about how we should never look down on minority races like those who are mixed blood.
How they deserve equal rights like all of us.
You know, sometimes in our lives, things are as IT IS.
But yet, doesn't mean it is, means it SHOULD BE.
So many times, we leave the facts as it is, not as it should be!
In 2009, i don't want to leave things as it is, i want to make things as it should be!

And btw, YOU SHOULD WATCH THIS MOVIE!!!! IT'S SO SO GOOD!

Like robson said, i could watch it 2983297501 times!!!
And the love story between hugh jackman and nicole kidman is so real. wow..amazing stuff:)
And once again, it reminds me, that being a person without love, without dreams is really pointless.
Everyone deserves to have dreams!
When the rain comes, everything grows and comes alive again.
In 2009, let the rain of the Holy Spirit rain upon us and WE WILL BE ALIVE AGAIN!!!:D

Toasting to a FANTASTIC YEAR!:)

2008-12-31T01:26:00.005+08:00

Heyo everyone! It's 31st Dec, the last day of 2008!
It happens that today is also my Parent's wedding anniversary! i think (if i'm not wrong) it's their 29th year of knowing one another, 22nd year in marriage.
OMg..thats sooooo long! i really pei fu them..they've been through ALOT together and when i say alot, i mean alot. you don't wanna imagine.
So mummy and daddy, you'll forever by my heroes, my role models, the ones i love! :) I love you poppy and mummy! Happy wedding anniversary! :D

Oh anyway, Decided to post up meaningful pictures of what happened recently.:)
Here's some of the pics taken during our cell group christmas party!:)

Candlelight 1

Candlelight 2

Whole cell group with some missing!

ACS Barker guys in N350!

Hahaha! That was really a fun party!:)
we had a great time together!!!:D

And also, decided to post about Shaun And Robson and their hilarious video taken in Changi Airport when we sent Shaun off!
Hahaha..it's super funny!!!!! I am still laughing my butt off!!!

Anyway, its less than 24 hours to 2009!
Darice, Welcome 2009!
I will have a FABULOUS, phenomenal, breathtaking, incredible, mind blowing, romantic 2009! hahahhaa.. okay i was joking about the romantic! but yeay! i will be stronger!
I will be more mature! I will be more wise!
I will be closer to God,closer to the goals i've set!!:) PTL:)
EVERYONE, Gear up for a Supercalifragilisticexpialidocious 2009!!!!:D

2008-12-25T22:26:00.002+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!:D
how was your christmas day? i think mine was fantastic! it was long, but really enriching!:)
It was a fantastic expo and jurong service! and thousands got saved in these two days! Praise the lord!
Hehehe.
I'm feeling narcissistic! omg.
i just took alot of self pics..gosh! i think i must stop my fingers from clicking the camera! hahahah!

Anyway, i think..the drama is super awesome this year.
I think the idea is really fresh from the perspective of the angels:)
I cried when i watched the part where God told benny, "well done, my good and faithful servant". I like what God said, "Mistakes are not an end".

How true isn't it?
I have made countless mistakes, and really just trying my best to be all that God wants me to be.
But yet, God is not the kind of person where "failure is not an option".
Despite failure, there is a second chance for all of us.
Salvation is about second chances!
If you've given your heart to Jesus, don't take it back. cos God is about to explode something into your heart!:D amen!

Tml i have a Christmas party!
btw..in 2009:
i need to focus on: 1) God's house
2) spend more time with family (like alot more time:X)
3) Study very hard and pull my CAP up! (i can do it! u go girl!!)
4) Ministry (cell group to explode!!!!)
5) learn singing!

I need to learn to say no to certain things..i think i'm a "yes" man.
not too good though.
darice wake up your idea and stop thinking you can be last minute! no you cannot!!!!!

yea..i cannot be last minute anymore. cast the last minute spirit out of my life!!!!

2008-12-25T01:44:00.003+08:00

3 John 2

"Beloved I pray that you may prosper in all things and be in health, just as your soul prospers!"

I believe in this verse. Ever since i dunno when. I still do now.

And i am beginning to see the truth of this verse in so many people's lives, including my own.

It's christmas, but why do i see so many people having tears?
Why does christmas not carry the good cheer we all used to enjoy?
I guess its true that when you are lonely, the celebration doesn't cheer you up; in fact, it emphasizes how lonely you are.

I see so many people,giving their all in what they do, but things aren't working out! The dark days or disappointments, distress, depression:(

Oh God, will you let your light shine into these people's lives? And mine?
I don't wanna lose my soul to busyness, i want to have a soul that is alive!
I need to revive my soul. Period.
:) Smile everyone!:)

2008-12-23T01:28:00.002+08:00

Hahaha!
Hello everyone..i'm fine really.

I think it's the PMSing..hahaha
Oh wells..i'm okay one la..i am a strong gal!:)
Yay!
Today after much thinking and walking around alone, i think i'll get the samsung omnia!
It has camera, microsoft office, touch screen, songs, videos, games.
Kind of everything i need.
But i still want my iTouch!:( how not brown cow..really dilemma leh..

man..oh yea..and i concluded today that in 2009, i shall be more sociable!
After today i feel i need to hang out more with my friends. I think i'm too bookworm..or nerdy or whatever you call it.
It's like either church, home or school.
Man! What's up with me?
I should go out more and chill in jazz pubs and watch more movies! ahhaha..wanna join me people??? pls sms me!:)
You know..i've not been to movies since like 3 months i think!
Hehehe.goodness! okay..i must start getting a proper social life or i'll be stuck on the shelf forever! now..thats not good at all!

Yay! 2009 must be better! it will be better! i must prioritise, not make myself too busy for family, friends and relationships that are impt!
Okok..this shall be the first resolution of my new year!:))

2008-12-22T01:00:00.002+08:00

It's christmas time of the year!
Somehow..i don't really feel like celebrating christmas.
Hmm..my heart is kinda heavy as i end 2008 and enter into 2009.
I also dunno why leh..:(

I just feel a bit lost.. I also dunno about what.
Sometimes i feel i do do do...so busy..for what purpose?

I think i've become busy..that i forget to stop to talk to pple who need a good talk..
or spend time with those who need company.
I really hope.. i dun become a person who distances herself away from other people.
God..i really pray that you will help me to guard my heart, in all issues.

You alone, knows whats deep down in my heart.Sometimes even i myself am unsure of what i'm thinking.
But i know that when i am in tribulation, i am never in despair. Lord you will always come through for me:)

Will someone please tell me why i am feeling this way?
haiz.
Christmas is supposed to be special..but i feel like something is missing.
New years are supposed to be fresh starts..but i feel like i am not ready for it.
Lord, you are my very present help in times of need and I believe that your grace is sufficient for me.

Grace-empowerment to do that truth demands.
no matter how tired i may be, i think i wanna hold on to the confessions that i believe in.
God that is really my only wish this year. Please hear me!

Signing off,
Darice

2008-12-20T22:29:00.003+08:00

Well..it has been an eventful friday!

We met to ton overnight with Shaun at the Singapore Changi Airport. And for once, i felt like i'm 16 again! wahaha..

Anyway, before meeting the peeps i was in school doing my research at u know what time? 6pm. LOL. like who on earth does research at 6pm?

Me lor. ahaha..cos shun bian go school then go out ma!
Anyway..i used that as an excuse to make Shaun's photo book..which took 3 whole days to complete. Shaun you better keep that tight or i'll kill u!

Anyway by the time i was ALMOST finished, (not yet), it was already 8pm.
So i headed to city hall to meet them. And still i waited for another hour..:(
But i decided to use the time to finish the photo book..while sitting on the mrt platform..
so you can guess i kinda look out of place, doing art and craft on an mrt platform:p

But anyway finally they came and we headed to the airport to have dinner..
and that's where the fun begins..
We decided to play guitar, sing, watch stupid youtube videos, play TIN TIN TANTAN..and like loads of other things..
I think i was seriously crazy already. So u can imagine 8 crazy people makin loads of noise.
Hhaha..the best part was really when Robson, Shaun, Julia and I took a walk to go to Crowne Plaza lobby. I reall ylove the deco there..So romantic!!!!

We just sat there listening to Robson and Shaun speaking in their Brit.ish accent and Scot.tish accent! ahah. it was super super hilarious!!
they are really one funny pair of guys. Made for each other man! hahaha.
I'll post up pictures real soon..and u'll know what i mean!

Anyway..the funny part is we got chased out of our cozy place by the security guards cos we were laughing too loudly.
i think that's my fault. Cos i kinda laugh really heartily!:D

Anyway..it was really a fun night with Leroy, Christopher, Shaun, Julia, Robson (especially), Insoo, Eunice!:)
In the end, after getting chased out..we went to Coffee Bean and started singing!
Soon after i got tired and dozed off.
Then..the time came for Shaun to leave!:(

But anyway..i felt like crying when i read Julia's blog just now.
MUST JIA YOU OK JULIA AND SHAUN!!!! I'll be here with you guys!

And..to shaun, i think i say alot of things to you already la..not gonna give you another long speech again.
But you seriuosly better call julia ..and me too!!!!:D And Robson tells me to add him into the list of people you should call. So yea:)
Will be missing you cousin brudda!:)